Current mood:	frustrated
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Long Time No Entry
theres so much i can update on .. but at the moment, imma choose to write about the recent things.

well i work with this girl named tracy,. and shes great, she always comes to work talking about going to buffalo for a good lay with this guy named chris... it was funny stories after another.. until she proposed that i come to buffalo with her one day.. it was always a thought .. but this time yea i went.. it was suppose to be me tracy and jenny, but jenny couldnt go.. so just tracy and i went. on the way there i got the run down of the situation,

sonja said that her dad can do what he wants and that jenny has no reason to be mad, cuz her and kevin are sleeping together, and jennys married.. and kevin is chris's brother.. ( they kevin and chris live together) so after that i went up thinking that this is ridiculous nothing is gunna happen cuz i dont know him, and im not one for getting ppl mad at me, in this case jenny..

well i got there and kevin was standing there.. and chris was sitting on the couch with his daughter krystle, and so i got introduced and such..so it was good.
krystle, and her friend left so it was down to the 4 of us..
chris tracy kevin and myself... we drank got high (weed , e, and oxys), and had huge fun.. needless tosay, we were completely bombed... tracy and chris went upstairs to fuck like everytime she goes up there.. kevin and i laid on the couch and talked.. it was great,.. i found out alot about him,,, it was kinda scary, but in all honesty right now it doesnt matter... at least hes being honest.. couldbe the fact that hes drunk/high, but needless to say im getting the WHOLE story...

38 years old, process of a divorce, 6 kids, was sleeping with jenny, even those chris is black and kevin is white they are blood brothers (different dads) hes looking for a steady relationship not jenny who is fucking him around.. ( jenny and him have a kid together, so thats where things get complicated)

anyhow, we fall asleep, and around 730am.. we wake up and go upstairs and just fall asleep in his bed.. wake up around 230, go back downstairs with tracy and chris in which case chris made us french toast..,we watch tv/movies and passed out again.. wake up around 8pm, get ready and head back home around 9...as we headed out towards the car, i realized i forgot sumthng, so sent tracy back to get it.. when tracy was outta site kevin kissed me.. it was cute, and he told me i had to come back.. its like all the shit he told me that would of crept the hell outta m e disappeared... anyhow, as tracy came back she got in the car, and we drove away.. tracys like i saw that. and i said i didnt wanna see anything.. lol.. and i dunno.. so we just talked all the way home.. and around 10 i dropped tracy off.. and went out..

so for the next week or so, i guess kevin was talking to tracy asking how i was and such,,, and told jenny that he didnt wanna have anything to do with her anymore due to the fact that its not fair for him to sit around and wait for her to leave her husband and yadda yadda yadda...he told tracy he liked me and blah blah blah... soo that leaves me with visit #2
the following weekend we went up again.. it was a hug blast, we drank got high and had fun... chris and tracy dissapeared, while me and kevin stayed downstairs.. yea this time stuff happened.. and i dunno it didnt feel wierd.. it turns out that i like the guy.. his son mikeal to...yea he has custody of mikeal, and he was there this weekend..so mikeal slept upstairs while me and kevin stay downstairs ;)

haha woke up in the morning played video games with mikeal, played catch with him to.. we just hung around, and kevin invited me out to his aunts place for dinner. but he ended up feeling sick, so we didnt go.. around 7 i put kevin to bed and laid with him for a bit until he started to feel better, and then we came downstairs, and took tracy and mikeal out to eat.. when we got to wendys, the braod behind the counter asked me if mikeal was mine.. i laughed and said no, she proceeded to say i had great interaction with him so i must be his regular babysitter...i laughed again and said no... the lady gave me a strange look and i turned and looked at kevin and said hes my boyfriends.. the lady said oh.. and kevin gave me a smile laughed a lil and put his arm around me.. it was great... ok so we ordered went back and ate, and aroundd 1 am i was like omg i have to go.. i have to work at 7am.. kevin said dont go so i told him to promise me to get me up at 530, so i can shower and head off to work.. he said ok.. so we went to bed, he set the alarm and i went to sleep.. 10 TO SIX, tracy comes in and says hey kara is 10 to six.. i freaked out got up .. kicked kevin and said jerk ui didnt wake me up.. he laughed and said dont be mad, u were like sleeping beauty.. i laughed kissed him bye and told him i would call him that week,.... and traccy and i left.. got to tracys around 645 fixed my hair and went to work.. needless to say i was VERY TIRED... ahahha
i waited a few days, and tracy informs me that kevin was awaiting my phonecall. and that he told her to tell me that i didnt always have to come up with her, that i have an outstanding invite to come up when ever i want.. so thatsc ool... however, its still a lil freaky about this whole situation...

we went up the third time, and it was a blast,, we drank and smoked weed had a blast.. mitchell was there hes 18. mitchell is chris and kevins cuzin woke up in the morning.. kevin and i went and got jakob(mikaels cuzin) and mikael from the bus.. and then krystle chris's daughter came over.. so tracy and i left.. and it wasnt as exciting as the other times.. due to the fact that, all the kids were there.. oh well .. same thing... i told kevin i would call him , before he moves.. and stuff ( oh yea kevin bought his own place and is moving in Nov.1 he wants me to come help him decorate.. and stuff.. so that will be cool... and he informs me that he intends to keep me around for a while, so thats cool to.. i mean its only fair.. as soon as hes allowed to cross the boarder again this will be great.. kinda excited.. but thats not for another 6 months.. argh) anyhow.. thats where it stands.. going ona month and im already having a blast.. i hope it continues to be this good...

*final note*

jennys pissed, sonjas laughing, dons pissed/ content, tracys confused, chris is afraid that hes gunna lose tracy ( due to other complications), kevin is happy, and i am all over the map.. i have alot to process and alot to deal with ... and alot to understand... sooo heres to time ...
What do i do...
theres soo much to adjust to.. can i do it?
do i want to do it?
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!