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[Mar. 21st, 2008|12:25 pm] |
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ok so its been longer then a yr that i have posted and i feel the need to type... so this is gunna be a loooong story about the current situation i am in..
july1st 2007 i met a boy named jp, we went for a walk with my dog out for dinner and chilled all nite.. i realllly liked this boy he was a mazing, we hung out every day after he got off work, he would come over and spend time with me. things went on like this for a good mth then i went away to my family reunion, and he ended up goinback to his ex hannah, when i came back into town we didt talk for a few days, and then when we did start talkin again he came back to me... things were goin well, and then i ended up hookin up with a boy from toronto, and i had strong feelings for him too. but i realized i loved jp more.. me n john stopped talkin for the mth of october and he was chillin with a girl named melissa.. we decided that we were gunna work things out so i went back to him.. things were goin well, but i had my doubts about his intentions and essentially i started pushin him away, asking 1000 questions and what not.. then recently, we were at his mothers house doin laundry chillen with his daughter and his brothers ex gf, jp decided he was gunna go in the shower, he asked me to join him, needless to say i was gunna give him a few mins and then go in but after about 10 mins i still didnt hear the water goin.. so i went back to see what was up, and i came across him and anna makin out in the back room .. i lost it and told him to take me home, on the way home, i balled my eyes out and he proceeeded to say that he had no idea what happened its never happened b4 he didnt mean to hurt me.. and ya ya ya i fell for it and we tried to work it out.. and then 2 weeks later, he went to big bucks, where he made out witha girl named caitlyn.. and the way i found this out was that i went thru his phone.. and confronted him.. we talked n what not and we were fine.. STUPID ME I KEEP TAKIN HIM BACK.. the other nite he went to the club n got hammered and he caled me to come get me.. so i went he was sitting in front of the computer and saying he didnt mean tohurt me and blah blah blah... then i told him to kiss me, and he stated that he didnt deserve to.. itold him he was drunk and to stoppit ... we went to bed, and he drove me home in the morning becuz i had to go to work. he had an interview that day @ 2pm. so around 4 i msged him asking how it went n he said good he was just waiting for hr to call.. so i said great ill call u when i get home n i love u.. he wrote back love u too.. but when i got home n called he didnt answer his phone, n then around 1030 his phone wassnt working at all.. now his phone is dead and i haveny heard from him since wednesday afternoon... ITS FRIDAY afternoon.. i dont know whats up withhim and i dotn get it.. i dont know what to do.. im stuck at a rough spot right now, and im confused.. do i let him go cuz of all the times hes hurt me.. and just chalk itup as another kick inthe face? or do i wait n see what his excuse is.. and see if its valid and then let him go.. or do i brush it off and say oh well AGAIN.. i dont know.. like why me.. this is fucking retarded and i cant handle anymore.. i wanna curl up n die..i always get played and when will i find sumone to love me for me.. and wanna be with me.. and not anyone else.. when will i find and equal.. fuck this shit like seriously... i need help |
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[Jan. 18th, 2006|01:35 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | fuuuuuck | ] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
| | off the map | ] |
| [ | imaginary noises |
| | im broken - pantera | ] |
i won't lie, im not a actual star
i am a new wave bitch who only digests drug habits like rock stars
when i dying from boredom, ill try it all
my drug habbits are like kids eating candy
a disfigured little girl trying to blend in
i love throwing partys that only I attend
my cosmetics & narcotics have nothing to do with you
i am pathetic, shhh dont tell
you ARE better than me,do you think i care?
ill always be just that nu,ber in a mans black book
i seem to fuck all the nuts drunks pimps and perverts
i tend to kiss & gag just to feel sumthing
im an insecure & dirty whore
who will do anything for kicks
from fucking with ur head down to spitting on ur grave
save your tongue, i know im a bitch & whatever else you think i am
i WANT to be just like YOU, then id be cool, right
i WISH i could feel like YOU, and then maybe i would understand
u wont understand me so stop trying.
one thing will always lead to another
dont feel so attached i wont always be there
ill be a speck in the sky the day i die
forever forgotten a past time ago
nothing is forever and thats the way it stays |
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| could it be anymore true |
[Nov. 11th, 2005|01:09 pm] |
.:Venus:.
"You thrive on balance in all aspects of your
life. You have a great deal of passion and when
it comes to love, you like to play games. You
have a tendency to search for something better,
a search which always seems to come up short.
You have difficulty finding satisfaction in
life, but you have a great ability to get along
with almost anyone."
. : : Which Astrological Planet are You? : : . [10 Gorgeous Pics!]
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[Nov. 4th, 2005|01:09 pm] |
i went up to buffalo again, it was fun,... i just decided to call kevin and ask if he wanted company... he said sure, so yea i went up by myself.. tracy had her kids and michelle. well she had to "work" in the morning.. how bogus..
anyhow yea got to the border and they searhed my car, found nothing.. and asked a whole bunch of questions.. blah .. oh well i got to go thru. arrived and we all had a blast, smoke sum blunts, and talked.. mitchell went home, chris fell asleep and kevin and me curlled up on the couch,
i got a present, i have a kitten to bring home, woot woot, its white and grey.. SOOOO CUTE..
i dunno what to call her yet..
although we got up in the morning, picked up mitchelle, drove him and mikeal and jakob to school, then we went appartment hunting.. found one.. sooo cute.. its green on the outside and all hardwood floorin on the inside big bedrooms for us, and mikeal, a lil balcony.. it was great... so kevin said he would talk to the guy and see what he can do...then we went to meet his aunt donna, smoke a joint and had coffee.. it was wierd but fun.. kevin said it was like meeting his mom.. "scary" but it went well...
i left around 1030 cuz i had to be home for a car appointment i had.. so i drove himhome we said our good byes and i left...
i love going to buffalo.. kevins awesome, i talked to him last nite and he got the appartment.. he moves in on the 14th **fingers crossed**and im going up there to help him fix it all up.. it will be great i cant wait...i get to go pick out a nice big bed for us, and all the furniture.. woot woot.. im excited..
were going up there on monday, for the simple plan concert its gunna be Kasie me and tracy.. and then after we are going to stay at chris and kevins, so that should be fun,....
but other then that.. theres nothng else new..
my life is sleep work buffalo and kevin.. with the odd times of other things lol..
and im happy.. which is a first for a long time..
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[Nov. 4th, 2005|01:03 pm] |
Snuffleupagus
You scored 47% Organization, 60% abstract, and 54% extroverted! |
This test measured 3 variables.
First, this test measured how organized you are. Some muppets like Cookie Monster make big messes, while others like Bert are quite anal about things being clean.
Second, this test measured if you prefer a concrete or an abstract viewpoint. For the purposes of this test, concrete people are considered to gravitate more to mathematical and logical approaches, whereas abstract people are more the dreamers and artistic type.
Third, this test measured if you are more of an introvert or an extrovert. By definition, an introvert concentrates more on herself and an extrovert focuses more on others. In this test an introvert was somebody that either tends to spend more time alone or thinks more about herself.
You are somewhat organized, both concrete and abstract, and both introverted and extroverted.
I bet you didn't think you were Snuffleupagus. Let's find out why.
You are both somewhat organized. You have a good idea where you put things and you probably keep your place reasonably clean. You aren't totally obsessed with neatness though. Alloyius Snuffleupagus (and all Snuffleupagus') is not sloppy by nature, but he moves so incredibly slowly that it is impossible for him to be totally organized.
You both are about equally concrete and abstract thinkers. You have a good balance in your life. You know when to be logical at times, but you also aren't afraid to explore your dreams and desires... within limits of course. Snuffy generally has very basic interests, but he explores his abstract sensitive side when he plays his snuffleflute.
You both are somewhat introverted. Originally Snuffleupagus was very shy and was only Big Bird's invisible friend. However as he has aged he has started to build new friendships with new characters. Like Snuffy, you probably like to have some time to yourself. However, you do appreciate spending time with your friends, and you aren't scared of social situations.
The other possible characters are
Oscar the Grouch
Big Bird
Cookie Monster
Ernie
Elmo
Kermit the Frog
Grover
The Count
Guy Smiley
Bert
If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also if you want to tell me your favorite Sesame Street character, I can total them up and post them here. Perhaps your choice will win! |
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My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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| LOOOONG ASS SURVEY |
[Nov. 1st, 2005|12:23 am] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
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| [ | imaginary noises |
| | same old situation | ] |
Everything Anyone Ever Wanted To Know About You
The Basic Stuff
Name?: Kara Kennedy
Age?: 20
Height?: 5'7
Weight?: ....
Birthday?: january 4
Birthplace?: Welland
Current Location?: Fonthill
School/Grade?: Niagara College Graduate
Zodiac Sign?: Capricorn
Chinese Zodiac Sign?: Not sure.. bull?
Righty or Lefty?: Righty
Haircolor?: Red, Brown, Blonde
Eyecolor?: Brown/Green
Skin Color?: Fair
About You
What's Your Family Situation (Parents, Siblings, etc)?: mother father brother sister
Any Pets?: yes
If So What Are They?: 3 Dogs
Favorite Relative?: Ummm...
Least Favorite Relative?: Ummm
What's Your Heritage/Race?: LOL...
Political Affilation?: JFK..lol
Love & Sex
Sexuality?: straight
Are You In A Relationship Now?: sorta
If So, With Whom?: Kevin
For How Long?: 1 month
Are You In Love?: no
Do You Have A Crush On Anyone?: yes
Ever Had A Crush On Someone Of The Same Sex?: no
How Old Were You When You Had Your First Kiss?: umm grade 1 truth or dare lol
Virgin?: nope
If Not, How Old Were You When You Had Sex For The First Time?: 13
Was It Enjoyable?: dont remember
What's The Farthest You've Ever Gone?: haha.. kidding rite
Where Do You Most Like To Be Kissed?: neck
Best Love Quote?:
Your Friends
Best?: Shelf ? LOL
How Many Do You Have?: dunno
More Guys Or Girls?: Guys
Love Them All?: yes
Any You Wish You Were Closer To?: nope
Oldest?: Kevin 38
Newest?: Tracy
Pen Pal?: nope
Friends And Words: Associate Them
Pen: Jeremy
Flower: branden
Pink: Kasie
Window: peter
Heart: ian
Mother: Michelle
Bread: beard
Insane: jessica
Sunglasses: dara
Pimp: chris
Cross: matty
Lonely: tabish
Car: laurie
Music: John
This Or That
Boxers or Briefs?: Boxers
Thongs or G-Strings?: thong
Shorts or Pants?: Pants
Shoes or Barefeet?: shoes
Books or Movies?: both
Night or Day?: Night
Dark or Light?: Dark
Mountains or Beach?: Beach
Snow or Sun?: Sun
Pepsi or Coke?: Pepsi
Guys or Girls?: Guys
Swim or Surf?: Swim
For or Against
Gay Marriage?: for
Abortion?: for
Bush Getting Re-elected?: against
Suicide?: against
War?: against
Pants?: against
Clothes In General?: against
Penises?: for
Favorites
Color?: Green
Number?: 13
Holiday?: Christmas
Season?: Autumn
Movie?: American History X, Se7en, Suicide Kings, Requiem for a dream
Book?: catcher in the rye
Magazine?: Cosmo
Food?: Pizza
Drink?: OJ
TV Show?: Simpsons
Song?: we're in this together- NIN
Band?: To many
Computer Game?: hearts
Video Game?: tetris
Anime/Manga?: dunno
Shirt?: my rude t-shirts
Pants?: black pants
Actor?: edward norton
Actress?: angelina jolie
Singer?: manson
Flower?: black roses
Scent?: swiss army
Animal?: horse
Cookie?: oreo
The Future
Want To Go To College?: going back to college
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?: forensic anthropoligist
Want To Get Married?: yes
Want To Have Kids?: yes
What Would Their Names Be?: keagan and koldin
How Many?: 2 of my own
Where Do You Want To Live?: in a big house
Where Do You Want To Get Married?: on an island
How Do You Want To Die?: not sure
More Stuff About You
Piercings?: 13
Tattoos?: 6
Smoke?: yes
Drink?: yes
Do Drugs?: yes
Skinny Dip?: yes
Greatest Fear?: feet
Chocolate or Vanilla?: vanilla
Go To Church?: nope
Religion?: nadda..
Scars?: to many to count
CDs Owned?: ick
Collections?: teddy scares and carebears
Like To Be Naked?: no
Ever Eaten Sushi?: yes
An Entire Case Of Oreos?: no
Been On Stage?: yes
Danced In The Rain?: yes
Kissed Someone Of The Same Sex?: yes
Weirdest Dream?: ick
Best Dream?: same
Saddest Dream?: ick
Dream You Most Wish Would Come True?: none
Think You're Attractive?: nope
Shoplifted?: yes
Been Caught "Doing Something"?: of course
Weirdest Makeout Place?: dunno..if u feel like kissing then kiss
Like Thunderstorms?: yes
Favorite Shoes?: black
Favorite Quote?: "never monkey around with another monkeys monkey"
Best Advice Given?: grow up
Worst Advice Given?: grow up
Favorite Song Lyric?: "i just want somthing i can never have"
What Quote Says Most About Your Life?: "i didnt steal your boyfriend"
Glad This Is Over?: yes |
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[Nov. 1st, 2005|12:01 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | i love hallowe'en | ] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
| |  Shaking In My Lil' Booties | ] |
| [ | imaginary noises |
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HAPPY FRIGHTDAY |
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| Long Time No Entry |
[Oct. 27th, 2005|02:27 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | ahhhhhhhhh | ] |
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theres so much i can update on .. but at the moment, imma choose to write about the recent things.
well i work with this girl named tracy,. and shes great, she always comes to work talking about going to buffalo for a good lay with this guy named chris... it was funny stories after another.. until she proposed that i come to buffalo with her one day.. it was always a thought .. but this time yea i went.. it was suppose to be me tracy and jenny, but jenny couldnt go.. so just tracy and i went. on the way there i got the run down of the situation,
sonja said that her dad can do what he wants and that jenny has no reason to be mad, cuz her and kevin are sleeping together, and jennys married.. and kevin is chris's brother.. ( they kevin and chris live together) so after that i went up thinking that this is ridiculous nothing is gunna happen cuz i dont know him, and im not one for getting ppl mad at me, in this case jenny..
well i got there and kevin was standing there.. and chris was sitting on the couch with his daughter krystle, and so i got introduced and such..so it was good.
krystle, and her friend left so it was down to the 4 of us..
chris tracy kevin and myself... we drank got high (weed , e, and oxys), and had huge fun.. needless tosay, we were completely bombed... tracy and chris went upstairs to fuck like everytime she goes up there.. kevin and i laid on the couch and talked.. it was great,.. i found out alot about him,,, it was kinda scary, but in all honesty right now it doesnt matter... at least hes being honest.. couldbe the fact that hes drunk/high, but needless to say im getting the WHOLE story...
38 years old, process of a divorce, 6 kids, was sleeping with jenny, even those chris is black and kevin is white they are blood brothers (different dads) hes looking for a steady relationship not jenny who is fucking him around.. ( jenny and him have a kid together, so thats where things get complicated)
anyhow, we fall asleep, and around 730am.. we wake up and go upstairs and just fall asleep in his bed.. wake up around 230, go back downstairs with tracy and chris in which case chris made us french toast..,we watch tv/movies and passed out again.. wake up around 8pm, get ready and head back home around 9...as we headed out towards the car, i realized i forgot sumthng, so sent tracy back to get it.. when tracy was outta site kevin kissed me.. it was cute, and he told me i had to come back.. its like all the shit he told me that would of crept the hell outta m e disappeared... anyhow, as tracy came back she got in the car, and we drove away.. tracys like i saw that. and i said i didnt wanna see anything.. lol.. and i dunno.. so we just talked all the way home.. and around 10 i dropped tracy off.. and went out..
so for the next week or so, i guess kevin was talking to tracy asking how i was and such,,, and told jenny that he didnt wanna have anything to do with her anymore due to the fact that its not fair for him to sit around and wait for her to leave her husband and yadda yadda yadda...he told tracy he liked me and blah blah blah... soo that leaves me with visit #2
the following weekend we went up again.. it was a hug blast, we drank got high and had fun... chris and tracy dissapeared, while me and kevin stayed downstairs.. yea this time stuff happened.. and i dunno it didnt feel wierd.. it turns out that i like the guy.. his son mikeal to...yea he has custody of mikeal, and he was there this weekend..so mikeal slept upstairs while me and kevin stay downstairs ;)
haha woke up in the morning played video games with mikeal, played catch with him to.. we just hung around, and kevin invited me out to his aunts place for dinner. but he ended up feeling sick, so we didnt go.. around 7 i put kevin to bed and laid with him for a bit until he started to feel better, and then we came downstairs, and took tracy and mikeal out to eat.. when we got to wendys, the braod behind the counter asked me if mikeal was mine.. i laughed and said no, she proceeded to say i had great interaction with him so i must be his regular babysitter...i laughed again and said no... the lady gave me a strange look and i turned and looked at kevin and said hes my boyfriends.. the lady said oh.. and kevin gave me a smile laughed a lil and put his arm around me.. it was great... ok so we ordered went back and ate, and aroundd 1 am i was like omg i have to go.. i have to work at 7am.. kevin said dont go so i told him to promise me to get me up at 530, so i can shower and head off to work.. he said ok.. so we went to bed, he set the alarm and i went to sleep.. 10 TO SIX, tracy comes in and says hey kara is 10 to six.. i freaked out got up .. kicked kevin and said jerk ui didnt wake me up.. he laughed and said dont be mad, u were like sleeping beauty.. i laughed kissed him bye and told him i would call him that week,.... and traccy and i left.. got to tracys around 645 fixed my hair and went to work.. needless to say i was VERY TIRED... ahahha
i waited a few days, and tracy informs me that kevin was awaiting my phonecall. and that he told her to tell me that i didnt always have to come up with her, that i have an outstanding invite to come up when ever i want.. so thatsc ool... however, its still a lil freaky about this whole situation...
we went up the third time, and it was a blast,, we drank and smoked weed had a blast.. mitchell was there hes 18. mitchell is chris and kevins cuzin woke up in the morning.. kevin and i went and got jakob(mikaels cuzin) and mikael from the bus.. and then krystle chris's daughter came over.. so tracy and i left.. and it wasnt as exciting as the other times.. due to the fact that, all the kids were there.. oh well .. same thing... i told kevin i would call him , before he moves.. and stuff ( oh yea kevin bought his own place and is moving in Nov.1 he wants me to come help him decorate.. and stuff.. so that will be cool... and he informs me that he intends to keep me around for a while, so thats cool to.. i mean its only fair.. as soon as hes allowed to cross the boarder again this will be great.. kinda excited.. but thats not for another 6 months.. argh) anyhow.. thats where it stands.. going ona month and im already having a blast.. i hope it continues to be this good...
*final note*
jennys pissed, sonjas laughing, dons pissed/ content, tracys confused, chris is afraid that hes gunna lose tracy ( due to other complications), kevin is happy, and i am all over the map.. i have alot to process and alot to deal with ... and alot to understand... sooo heres to time ...
What do i do...
theres soo much to adjust to.. can i do it?
do i want to do it?
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[Oct. 27th, 2005|02:26 pm] |
January,
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious.
Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at
people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to
criticize. Hardworking andproductive. Smart,
neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep
thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet
unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved.
Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but
prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties
expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has
great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very
Stubborn and money cautious.
What does your birth month reveal about you? (read memo)
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[Sep. 9th, 2005|08:44 pm] |
So because I'm now obligated:
1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you.
2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I will pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me. Or try to.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you.
6. I will tell you what color you remind me of.
7. I'll then ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your LJ. (and be prepared to answer the question I ask in #7) |
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[Sep. 6th, 2005|11:25 am] |
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| [ | imaginary noises |
| | something i can never have--NIN | ] |
^^PUNKED^^
1. FULL NAME: Kara A. Kennedy
2. BIRTHDAY: January 4th
3. STAR SIGN: Capricorn
4. AGE: 20
5. HEIGHT: 5'7 ish
6. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? The Rose City (welland)
7. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? Sumthing I have never have
8. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES? yup
9. YOUR PERFECT MAN/WOMAN: someone who is driven and spoils me
10. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR FAMILY? i can..
11. HAVE YOU EVER HATED ANY PERSON IN YOUR FAMILY? hated? no
12. ARE YOU GOING TO COLLEGE? graduated already.. but got me NO WHERE
13. WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF 5 YEARS DOWN THE ROAD? i have no fucking clue
14.YOUR FAVORITE SAYING? "fair enuff" " ahhh piss" "christ" and "FUCK"
15. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED...HAVE KIDS? i dunno anymore
16. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT ABORTION? if youre not ready, why ruin another life?
19. YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM? friday the 13th
20. WORST SONG YOU'VE EVER HEARD? theres a few
21. BEST SONG YOU'VE EVER HEARD? theres to many to name
22. ARE YOU A GOOD STUDENT? im full of useless info
23. ARE YOU A GOOD DRIVER? meh, alrite i suppose.. i ahvent killed anyone yet
24. ARE YOU A DEEP SLEEPER? how drunk am i allowed to be? lmao.. nah.. sumdays.. depends how tired i am
26. DO YOU COLLECT ANYTHING? Bears, ( carebears and teddyscares)
27. DO YOU LIKE TO SING?as long as no one hears me
28. DO YOU LIKE TO SHOP: never
29. DO YOU LIKE TO PARTY: boze booze booze.. hahaah drugs
31. DO YOU HAVE ANYTHING PIERCED? i have 14
32. WOULD YOU KILL SOMEONE YOU DIDN'T KNOW FOR 15 BILLION DOLLARS? haha yes
33. WHAT THREE THINGS WOULD YOU TAKE FROM YOUR ROOM IF YOU RAN AWAY? cell phone, pictures(if i was leaving for good) and clothes.
34. CAREER? forensic anthropologist
35. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? karabear, car-ra, mickey, sunshine
36. IF YOU WERE IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE, WOULD YOU TELL THEM? prolly not, only ends in heart breaks
*HAVE YOU EVER............................................................*
37. PUT A BODY PART ON FIRE FOR AMUSEMENT? hairspray and my hand
40. SKINNY DIPPED? yup
41. FLASHED SOMEONE? yup
42. PLAYED STRIP POKER? no
43. BEEN IN A PHYSICAL FIGHT? once or twice
44. BEEN IN LOVE? use to think so.. but no
45. RODE IN A POLICE CAR? yes
46. BEEN ON A PLANE? no
47. COME CLOSE TO DYING? many times
48. SWAM IN THE OCEAN? yes
49. BEEN HURT EMOTIONALLY? yes
50. BEEN TO AN AMUSEMENT PARK? yup
51. KEPT A SECRET FROM PEOPLE? yup
52. CRIED DURING A MOVIE? no
53. BEEN ON STAGE? yup
54. HAD CHICKEN POX? uh huh
55. HAD STITCHES? nope
56. HAD ANYONE BESIDES YOUR FAMILY SAY THEY LOVE YOU? yes
*WHATS YOUR FAVORITE..............................................*
57. VEGETABLE? green string beans
58.FAST FOOD/RESTAURANT? i dunno
59. MEAT? ham
60. Candy? gummi bears
61. MOVIE? se7en, american history X
62. TV SHOW? simpsons, family guy
63. PLACE TO VISIT? anywhere away from home
64. SPORTS? all of them
65. Non-ALCOHOLIC DRINK? Apple juice
66. ALCOHOLIC DRINK (IF YOU HAVE ANY) Mmm alcohol, i dunno beer?
67. NUMBER? 13
68. FLOWER? black roses
69. BRAND OF SHOES? NO NAME
70. PERFUME/COLOGNE? swiss army, cool water
71. SHAMPOO? cheap good smelling stuff lol
72. DAY/NIGHT? night
73. SUMMER/WINTER? FALL!
74. LACE/SATIN? either or...
75. CARTOON CHARACTER? stewy
76. FOOD? mexican
77. SUBJECT? science
78. VEGETABLE JUICE? tomato juice
79. PERSON TO TALK TO? theres a few
*IN THE LAST 24 HOURS YOU HAVE....................................*
80. CRIED? no
81. WORN A SKIRT? HAHAHHHAHAHHAHAHA! NO!
82. MET SOMEONE NEW? not really
83. CLEANED YOUR ROOM? no..
84. DONE LAUNDRY? no
*DO YOU BELIEVE IN...................................................*
85. YOURSELF? blah
86. FRIENDS? only a select FEW
87. FAMILY? they are all fake
88. SANTA CLAUSE? yes
89. TOOTH FAIRY?yes
90. DESTINY/FATE? sure
91. ANGELS? no
92. GOD? no
93. SATAN/DEMONS? no
94. GHOSTS? sumtimes
*FRIENDS AND LIFE.........................................................*
95. DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND? not any more
96. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING? black pants, and a black hoodie
98. WHO'S YOUR LOUDEST FRIEND? MICHELLE
99. SHYEST FRIEND? haha what does shy mean
100. WEIRDEST FRIEND? all of them
101. A FRIEND THAT YOU HAVEN'T SEEN IN AWHILE? tori
102. WHEN HAVE YOU CRIED THE MOST? bar boy mishaps.. bastard!!!
103. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU DANCED WITH?eeek... i have no idea.. shawn prolly. . creepy 27 year old with 4 kids a wife and a gf... hes a DoG!
104. WHAT IS THE WORST FEELING? losing what is most precious to you
105. IF YOU HAD TO BE STRANDED IN A ROOM WITH SOMEONE WHO WOULD IT BE? i cant answer that. |
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[Aug. 31st, 2005|12:58 pm] |
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| [ | imaginary noises |
| | im just a kid-- simple plan | ] |
alritey.. where to start.. i guess just the basics...from as far back as i remember...
ummm....
went to toronto, saw "flatlined" ... the dudes from 3dg came in, they CANT dance... ahah .. for musicians, they can not find a beet...
went to chatham, seen social code play.. not to bad..
met dewayne.. yea that was different.. stalked rory at work.. haha .. that was cool..
met crack heads on a beach.. laurie is now dating one of them, i had his uncle but thats over lol...
** ok that sounds bad.. heres the story,
we went to the beach with tim justing michelle laurie and myself to have 3 "DRUNK" guys come up to us and ask us to go over for a bonfire they were having.. of course we didnt go, and the one guy wouldnt leave laurie alone, so he got a kiss outta her lol.. and then we all left.. needless to say we hung out with them at the other beach ( different nite) where tyler (lauries bf) got drunk, ryan(tylers cuzin) got drunk and
johnny( their uncle) got really drunk.. anyhow, johnny was sooo drunk that he was falling all over the place and he came over and tried to kiss me and junk .. until the one time hecomes over puts me in thei s huge bear hug from behind and whispers in my ear, i love u , if u screw me over ill kill u.. i broke free and screamed .. " LAURIE THEY HAVE TO ALL LEAVE NOW" but as laurie was coming over johnny tried to grab me again.. i pushed him just a lil but he fell over a rock and smashed his face up pretty bad.. i laugh.. anyhow, they ( being my sister and michelle) drove them home, johnny spat in my sisters face, and grabbed michelles arm.. and well needless to say we had to get back at him sumhow.. so a feww weeks pass and johnny comes out with tyler and us.. so i figure, Hmm.. pay back.. so im all up in his "space" and just having fun, and then all hell breaks loose.. and shit happens.. michelle tells johnny he was a joke and he just got mind fucked by a 20 year old.. ahah yea he was 31.. anyhow, he gets pissed and says he was just in it for the fun but tells tyler he didnt wanna fuck things up with me.. and that everything would of worked out, if michelle stayedo utta it.. so i had my laugh... now the only person we hang out with is tyler cuz laurie is still dating him ...
well thats that story,
umm we met sum other boys.. peter scott and braden.. on the beach one nite..
they can be alrite sumtimes.. other times they can be shit heads lol..
heres another story,
peters off and on gf, is a psycho, and hated us due to the fact that we hung out with him all the time.. hes 16.. and shes 15.. no we are not hitting on him.. anyways when peter and branden went to montreal we approached sopihe ( the psycho) and told her what the deal was.. so she was coming down and so we were gunna surprise peter with her.. needless to say that kicked us in the face ( us being michelle and myself) peter claimed he didnt wanna see her. and branden said he hated her.. so we told them to suck it up shes coming anyways.. so branden his boy toy pj, peter sophie and michelle and i took them all out.. every thing was good until we went to the "garden" in the falls.. OMG.. i could of killed them.. they all took off got pissed at eachother.. and i was gunna slap one of them if i didnt have the restraint i did, eek..
so i dunno soo much happened and im at a loss of words.. so all i can say is SOPHIE WILL NEVER be be talked to again by myself.. i still talk to the others on the rare occasion.. i just dont find the need to hang out with them all the time.. and michelle likes them so we do hang out with them when we are free..
now this story.. GAH.. i dont wanna hang out with them every nite like we were doing.. cuz i wanna go out and converse with ppl my own age... i dunno go back to the bars and stuff.. it was fun.. i wanna go broke drinking and having fun like i use to.. not going out and going broke just driving around aimlessly every nite.. i dunno.. i use to have fun just doing nothing but sitting on the beach, but we have been tere far to many times its getting repetitive.. and im looking for sumthing more now..
so im going to toronto this weekend, was suppose to go with my sister.. but now im going with friends.. and we are staying the nite.. and ill be home monday .. if not tuesday..
that should be fun..
and umm... i have a tat appointment tomorrow to get all my tats fixed up and touched up.. then on the 4th theres a band show at the merchant ale house.. going to that.. then on the 10th there is a BBQ at a friends house.. that will be great i havent seen her in forever.. and with everything that has happened im glad she is still talking to me.. **luv ya kid**
and then the 11th is another band show at the merchant ale house.. so im going to that..
and then in november im going to california from the 18- the 30th...woo hoo..
and then jeremy is coming home, :Dhopefully kidnapping me back with him like he wants to.. thats rite folks if it can be done im gunna try and go to australia for a bit.. see whats out there.. :D
and then imnot sure.. everything is up in the air.. suppose to buy a car.. but my parents may give me theirs so theres another few hundred dollars a month in my pocket..
everything is going pretty good..
Oooooh.. hung out with brad the other day .. it was fun times.. we got coffee and went to his place watched a movie, he fell a sleep.. i watched the whole thing.. it was sin city.. not a bad movie at all.. kinda sketchy but good..
but yea.. i think that is all up to date.. if i think of more ill post again lol..
BEFORE I FORGET.. I NEED A JOB .. HAHA .. MY JOB IS GOING UNDER AS OF OCTOBER 31ST.. BOOOOOOOO.... HAHA .. i had an interview at the sheraton.. bleck.. i dont htink i want it .. haha ..
ok yea thats all..
LATER DAYZ .. |
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[Aug. 29th, 2005|11:12 pm] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
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YES IM STILL ALIVE.... |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2005|01:45 pm] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
| |  wooo hooo | ] |
| [ | imaginary noises |
| | dont take the girl... tim mcgraw | ] |
GOING TO TORONTO MONDAY NITE .. WOO HOO...
HORSESHOE TAVERN HERE WE COME.. lol..
LMAO.... meh free bus trip out to toronto for a free band show.. im there..
and so should u all be....
later dayz |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2005|01:33 pm] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
| | crushed | ] |
| [ | imaginary noises |
| | My Frustration-- Coal Chamber | ] |
Yo this one here goes out to all my girls out there ya kno got to have one good guy whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day he cant take it no more and decides to leave
I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my man wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for him I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my man left me, my whole life came crashin
Cant belive I hadda guy like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good guy and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life boy Im lost in this big world with nothing
Been all about the world ain't neva met a man that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the man of my dreams that made me
Be so happy
Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing boy and
Come on home ,baby boy I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...
I need you back
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[Jun. 28th, 2005|01:23 am] |
What kind of disease are you?
Kara: | Kara is caused by alien mind control rays.
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Kara compels infectee to keep Manson playing at all times, out of fear of 'head splodey.'
Drinking a mixture of raw eggs mixed with powdered paint is a good cure for Kara. | |
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[Jun. 17th, 2005|08:18 am] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
| |  devious | ] |
| [ | imaginary noises |
| | i like it i love it -- tim mcgraw | ] |
at the station of the noseless slut
He swallowed guile, fear and bile
and crawled into the echo
of the blood in an hourglass
where the words he heard stood on their heads
font, door, bride, the gun, the dying scream
astride the laugh that would be
his epitaph, and later
perhaps a rose
the maiming
i am for free love face to face
but men here
takes us from behind
ive crawled the air, standing
up agains nowhere
ive watched them
watch me
in the mirror
impaled on splinters
of light
i felt the need never desire
now i see myself in your eyes
maimed by hope
afraid
even boredom
will be taken from me
A stolen kiss
a thief and his sister
lived in a hut
she was very beautiful
crouching she kept the fire
at nite she went to the side of a road
and lay down, men circled
her still body and hten stole a kiss
her brother beat them to death
and stole their gold
butone nite a man gave her water from his flask
the brother beat him but he did not die
they carried him to the fire
and beat him until his cries fanned the flame
he grew yellow his eyes shinning
she lay near him, naked
he said your are a dark flower
she cradled his face and stole a kiss
and crept away to kill her sleeping brother
she came back carrying satchels of gold
dont be afraid she said
we are free
he fell into the flames
his arms on fire
the wound
sometimes i think
the hem of light
under the kitchen door
is an inch or two of respite
akhmatova
breaking bread on a table
keeping the room clean
as a wound
that will not heal
one day the age will rise
like a corpse in a spring river
a miracle
a
crosstree
of
two
planks
came apart
in
shifting
ice
as he hauled
her down
into
his arms
she felt
nails ease
out of her flesh
and
her
wounds
healing
wishbone
at midnight she made a wish on his body
and began to dream
of sleeping till the end of time
the drip drip
of blood
in the hourglass stopped
whipping stalls stood empty
only the stain remained
as men ladling stars
from root cellars
saw aureolas appear
around their eyes, a promise of rain
are fear big as saisl
took flight
in still waters
she lay waiting
to never wake up
it was unbearable
like waiting
for a child to drown
at dawn
she began to scream
** ...i like it i love it, i want sum more of it... ** |
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[Jun. 16th, 2005|11:23 am] |
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[May. 17th, 2005|11:42 pm] |
seeing how i have nooo idea how to delete these things.. these are my last sentences to u all..
this is done and gone..
livejournal is rediculous and i hate it.. so i refuse to post it in anymore..
Later Dayz Have A FANTASTIC Life...
IM OUT PEACE ! |
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[May. 17th, 2005|11:24 am] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
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| [ | imaginary noises |
| | hwy to hell--- ACDC | ] |
things are soo screwed up.. if ppl dont wanna be confronted about things dont do/say anthing that can be confronted..
try to hang out with him last nite, but NOPE no go.. why cuz he was tired and unmotivated... meh, i went by myself..
i was invited to brads show on the 31st at L3 so im maybe gunna go.. i dunno yet..
he has another band to.. but i dont remember the name he told me.. so oh well.. i told him to keep me posted of up comng events.. so we shall see..
anyhow, im going to toronto on saturday after work.. but looks like i have to go by myself..
sarahs well thats a long story i guess
michelle is working
jacquie is going to a thing with lisa
TORI ARE YOU COMING HOME??!!?
well fingers crossed.. i dont get killed .. hahaha
ill be glad to carry a weapon if it was legal.. but meh.. what ever happens happens..
im going shopping and staying with tabish..
hope things go well,..
i cant logg on to my online ocurses... whichis pissing me off..
i have to call in a bit to get my online user name and password.. this is such a pain in the ass,,
have to work tonite.. argh dont wanna...
i hate work
**FINAL NOTE**
things need to change.,. i need change, and i need out |
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[May. 12th, 2005|01:41 am] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
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| [ | imaginary noises |
| | kiss and make up-- skindred | ] |
soooooooooooooooo.. haha .. i have not much to update. except
i got my one tattoo done yesterday, and im going back on friday to get the other one done.. heres the pic:
it will be a mirror image on the other wrist..
although he screwed up in a few spots, it will be fixed..
oh the tattooist.. omg sexy.. haha his nick name is nipper.. go figure.
hes 28 and hes been tattooing for 11 years.. Mmm.. i want him haha
my friend crystle is working the details of that out..
haha crystle and kim were bugging me about the apparent "googly" eyes we were making at eachother..
meh i dont much care.. he stayed and had a smoke with me and that made him late for is other job.. and i told him he would be late.. he looked at me and said thats ok ,.im in no hurry rite now.. soo cute..
but hes not hot in the sense hes hot.. its more so awe ur oddly attractive and i dont know why i like u .. hes kinda got this space between his teeth and they are kinda buck like.. i dunno.. its wierd.. hes defnitly not sumthing i would normally go for.. but none the less.. if what crystle says is true.. i might end up "seeing" him.. hehe . which is cool.. maybe its about time i go for sumone a lil older then these lil boys i have been finding lol..... no offense!!
next i dyed my hair.. well first i bleached it cuz i wanted to get the black out.. well that didnt work so well.. my roots went BRIGHT blonde almost white... and the rest was an orangey yellow.. argh.. soo it looked horrid so i decided to put the red in .. OMG .. hahaha my hair is like fire red, and looked HORRIBLE.. in the beginign.. michelle had missed spots sumspots didnt dye, and the lil patches by my ears were still blonde.. it was HOORRIBLE.. so at around 12:15am we drive out to niagara falls to pick up more hair dye to fix my hair cuz at this point im pissed at the fact i knew it wasnt gunna work.. but none the less yes it was my fault.. michelel informs me that the shoppers in niagara falls is open 24/7 ... so yea i drive out there ITS CLOSED.. its only open till 12am.. and theres a kick in the teeth.. so we drove up the strip and stopped in every open store.. NO ONE had anything.. haha .. ok so i drive michelle home.. and i come home and i try to fix it.. i scrap the bottle, and i ass a lil bit of water .. haha.. yay chemistry class.. and i managed to fix my hair to the point where i can live with it.. haha .. heres the pic to that:
see .. light on top dark on bottom.. EWW.. haha .. but i have been getting compliments saying that red suits me and that the guys are fond of the red.. soo i dunno we shall see.. i know thati can live with it.. as long as it is up .. cuz as soon as it is down .. it sucks lol.
none the less. i think i am done writing for to nite..
LATER DAYZ
p.s. ,,,, Pj,. is wanting to hang out again. so thats alrite i suppose.. although i refuse to "see" him again, cuz hes a liar? but i cant prove it.. its just a feeling lol.. and his cuzin says he plays alot of women.. soo.. idont think that is sumthing i wanna get in to..
ill just work on nipper **winks**
p.p.s... i finallay got things with handicap dan firth to disappear..
ryan michelle and i were at perkins haveing coffee one nite and doesnt the retard msg me asking if we were gunna go for coffee.. i told him no and if he msgd me again it would be considered stalking cuz we are over and hes a nut case and he knows this and i told him never talk to me again..
i havent heard from him since.. yay me,.. and he hasnt msgs michelle either .. so i think we have finally gotten rid of him.. <3's |
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[May. 10th, 2005|11:23 am] |
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The Average Day..
Starts at ____ o' clock.: 11am ish
First thing I think when I wake up is: omg again?
If I eat breakfast, it's usually..: toast
I get in the shower no later than..:an hour b4 work
I wash my ____ first.: hair
And I wash my ____ last.: feet
I'm usually on the computer by..:12pm
If I leave the house, I'm going to..: work
I eat lunch by ____ o' clock.: 7pm
For lunch, I usually eat//drink..: chicken sandwich
It usually takes me ____ to get ready.: an hour
I usually spend _____ on the computer.:until im bored
As For Today..
I woke up at..: 9:56am
have eaten..: nothing
I have gone to..: pee and on the computer and outside
I've been on the computer for..: 15 mins now
I have been to these websites --: www.hotmail.com, www.myspace.com, www.livejournal.com
I am wearing..: satin pants and a black tank top
I wish I was..: you
Tomorrow..
I plan on waking up at..: 12pm
Spend my day doing..: reading outside
Talking to..: everyone
Listening to..: anything
Thinking of..: you
Laughing about..: whatever strikes me as funny
Getting angry about..: stupid clients
If You HAD To Choose..
Having the flu, or having a cold?: cold
Piercings all over your face, or piercings `everywhere` else?:everywhere else
Failing a class, or getting suspended?: suspended
Having to sit in a tub of snakes, or having to eat a tub of snakes?: either way
Eating a super-moldy peach, or drinking a glass of super-spoiled milk?: gag
Dying, or losing your memory?: dying
Going schitzo or being a mass murderer?: hmmm... theres a tuffy haha
PMSing for the rest of your life, or getting your period everyday?: period everyday
Have You Ever..
Been stood up?: uh huh
Had your Wisdom Teeth removed?: yup alsmost 5 years ago
Played an instrument, and sucked at it?:try to
Seen a UFO?: maybe lol
Pulled an all-nighter?:to amny
Been drunk?: yes
Been high?: yes
Been giving a speeding ticket?: no
Eaten octopus or squid?:yes
Been to a play?: yes
Gone surfing?: kinda
Snowboarding?: yes
Kissed someone of the same sex?: yes
Kissed someone of the opposite sex?: thats a given
Been in a real castle?: uh huh sure (the one in fort erie ...it even has a moat )
Had an eating disorder?:no
Been in a car accident?: yes
How Many..
Piercings do you have?: 13
Tattoos do you have?: 4
Pets do you have?: 7
People live in your house?: 5 but techincally 6 lol
Rings you're wearing?: 5
People you've actually loved?: errr none
What's Your Favorite..
Color(s)?: black, red and a few others
Cereal?: harvest crunch
Pajama's?: pj pants and a tank top
State?: FL
Movie?: se7en, american history x, donnie darko, requiem for a dream
TV show?: csi, law and order, crossing jordan
Disney movie?: monsters inc, finding nemo
Soda?: pepsi
Video//PC game?: super mario bros (classic)
Way to spend a Saturday?: out with friends
Class in school?: social deviance
Ice cream flavor?: vanilla
Candy?: gummi bears
Lollipop flavor?: rhasphoberry
Teacher?: mr ord. ... my construction teacher
Teacher you have a crush on right now?:hey sarah... i like.. SANDY**gag**
What If..
You could go on vacation anywhere. Where would you go?: islands
You could change your eye color. What would you change it to?: light blue
You could meet any two celebrities. Who would you meet?: trent reznor, marilyn manson
You could kickass at any sport. golf so i would have sumthingin common with my family lol
You could date any teacher in your school. Who would you wanna date?: sandy (lmfao sarah!!)
About Your Personality..
Shy or outgoing?: can be both
Do you laugh a lot?: yea i think so
How can someone tell your laugh isn't fake?:if they know me they no my laugh
Do you get annoyed easily?: i can, yes
Do you complain a lot?: no not really
Do you have a few close friends, or just friends?: a few close
Do you get jealous easily?: no, im not a jealous person
Do you cry a lot?: only that one month.. and i have nooo idea why.. but hes (dan)gone and im cry free
Do you cry during movies?: no
Do you raise your hand in class a lot?: done school and no
Do you enjoy loud parties with a bunch of your friends?: yes
Do you prefer double dates, or `alone` dates?: alone cuz they can go just about anywhere
In The Last Week Have You..
Eaten pizza?: yes
Eaten chinese food?: yes
Made out?:yes
Thrown up?: no
Gone hot tubbing?: no
Went shopping?: yes
Taken a test or quiz?: yes
Gone to the doctors?: no
Gone to the dentist?: no
Seen a movie?: yes
Which one?: the sandot ( u didnt say in theater)
Got into a big fight with a friend?: not this week
Got into a big fight with a close friend?: not this week
Random Questions..
Where were you on Halloween?: working
What are you doing this weekend?: shoping?
Are you in a fight with any of your friends right now?: nope
What's your screen name?:*kara*bear*[..." The day the whole world went away"...]
What's your favorite name for a girl?: cadence, kegan
For a boy?: koldin, ashton, and bryce
Do you have your own computer?: no
Do you like to watch really scary movies?: if im with sumone lol
When's the next birthday party you're going to?: my brothers august 26
Do you have braces?: not anymore
What color do you want to dye you hair?: i just dyed it pinkish red
Have you ever cried over a teacher before?: god no
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[May. 3rd, 2005|08:59 pm] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
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| [ | imaginary noises |
| | nothing... just me yawning | ] |
You Will Die at Age 58 |
58
Not bad, considering your super wild lifestyle
Want to live longer? Try losing a few bad habits. |
It's Not Sex. It's ... :
Praying with the Knees Upward
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Your True Birth Month Is January |
Loyal
Social
Logical
Easily jealous
Loves children
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Likes to criticize
Needs close friends
Ambitious and serious
Smart, neat and organized
Hardworking and productive
Loves to teach and be taught
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Searches for the greatest romance
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
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on top of all this i fine out i may have graduated.. yay me.. **fingers crossed**
as of n ow i need 4 credits and to keep my GPA.. wicked eh.. i have all bur 3 of my grades listed... i know i failed one course.. and i passed one sooo im waiting for that 1 COURSE to show if i failed or not.. even if i pass with a 50 i graduate and that means NOOOOO SPRING/SUMMER PROGRAM.. in that case i am applying to another job with michelle **fingers crossed**
oh and i am buying a car in the next month and doing it up in a wicked theme.. it will be the only one i seen like this .. soo ya me..
i will not say anything till i get it.. i have already started to prepare.. the only person who knows anything about this is michelle cuz i had to have her help in purchasing the things off ebay..
hahah,..,im excited..
ok im tired and i need to go to sleep..
LATER DAYZ !!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[May. 2nd, 2005|02:25 pm] |
STOLEN FROM ANDYCTED
FULL NAME:Kara Ann Kennedy
NICKNAMES: Kara-bear, Car-ra, Mickey, Sweetkix
NOW SPELL YOUR NAME BACKWARDS: arak
BIRTHDATE:January 4th, 1985
ASTROLOGICAL SIGN: Capricorn
BIRTHPLACE: Welland General Hospital
HOMETOWN: Welland
HAIR COLOUR: Black/Brown/Red/Blonde
EYE COLOUR: Brown, Green with moods and White with contacts
HEIGHT5'7
WEIGHT: Uh huh
AGE: 20
SHOE SIZE:8
RIGHTY/LEFTY: righty
SCHOOL: Niagara College
GRADE: finishing up my 2nd year
GPA: Bleck
SCHOOL IN THE FUTURE?: A borken down box
ALLERGIES/MEDICAL CONDITIONS?: Work
WORST SICKNESS YOU'VE EVER HAD?: Scarlet Fever
HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN TO THE HOSPITAL?: enough to know that i don't like them
WHAT FOR?: Many Things
WHAT INJURIES DID YOU HAVE?: To many
YOUR INTERESTS/HOBBIES: Friends Boyz and the internet
WHAT BUGS YOU?:lil girls who try to be older and dress like sluts to get attention
WHAT'S THE STORY BEHIND YOUR E-MAIL ADDRESS?: No idea
*~*ThE FaMiLy...*~*
WHAT IS YOUR BACKGROUND?: im a mutt
ARE YOUR PARENTS MARRIED, SEPARATED OR DIVORCED?: married
FOR HOW LONG?:20 years
WHERE DO YOU LIVE?: Fonthill
CAR?: minivan and an oldsmobile
DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?:sister and a brother
NAME:Kasie and Bryan
AGE: 18 and 16
DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?: 3 dogs and 4 fish
NAME(S): Dixie, Taz, and Punkin, 4 fish
AGE(S): 14, 9, 7 and fish
HOW MANY PETS HAVE YOU HAD (IF ANY)?: to many
NAME(S)/KIND(S) OF PET(S)cant remember
HOW MANY AUNTS DO YOU HAVE?: 9
HOW MANY UNCLES DO YOU HAVE?: 10
HOW MANY COUSINS DO YOU HAVE?: 25 first cusins
HOW MANY GRANDMOTHERS DO YOU HAVE?: 2
HOW MANY GRANDFATHERS DO YOU HAVE?: 2
*~*DeScRiBe YoUr...*~*
WALLET:Blue with flowers
ID HAIRBRUSH: huh?
TOOTHBRUSH: white and green
JEWELLRY WORN DAILY: hair band, watch, and gotty rings
PILLOWCASE: blue and green
BLANKET: i have many
COFFEE CUP: it says i rather be 40 than pregnant
SUNGLASSES:silver
SHOES: black and red
*~*FaVoUrItEs...*~*
FAVOURITE NUMBER: 13
FAVOURITE TV SHOWS: law and order, csi, crossing jordan, simpsons, family guy
FAVOURITE MOVIES: se7en, amercican history x, gone in 60 seconds, requiem for a dream
FAVOURITE SINGER/GROUPS: to amny
FAVOURITE SONGS: to many
FAVOURITE CDS: to many
FAVOURITE MUSIC VIDEOS:a few
FAVOURITE BOOKS: catcher in the rye
FAVOURITE MAGAZINE: Cosmo
FAVOURITE CATALOG: Sears
FAVOURITE FLOWER: Black Roses
FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?: Anytthing with alcohol
FAVOURITE WEBSITE:www.addictinggames.com
FAVOURITE SHAMPOO: Anything that smells good
FAVOURITE SOAP:blue water body wash
FAVOURITE RADIO STATION: anything that plays good music
FAVOURITE TV CHANNEL:superstation
FAVOURITE BOARD GAME: Monopoly
FAVOURITE CHOCOLATE BAR: crunchie
FAVOURITE FOOD: pasta
FAVOURITE FRUIT(S): strawberries, pineapple and apples
FAVOURITE VEGETABLE(S):green beans
FAVOURITE DRINK: orange and apple juice
FAVOURITE GUM: cinnamon
FAVOURITE ICE CREAM FLAVOUR?:vanilla
FAVOURITE COOKIE: chocolate chip
FAVORITE BEANIE BABY?:bears
FAVOURITE FLAVOUR OF POPSICLE?: banana
FAVOURITE DISNEY MOVIE?: Little Mermaid
FAVOURITE CARD GAME?: Rummy
FAVOURITE RESTAURANT?: Perkins
FAVOURITE SMELL?: Bonfire
FAVOURITE BODY PART?: My Boobs
FAVOURITE TOOTHPASTE?: Cinnamon
FAVOURITE COMIC?: Garfield or Marmaduke
FAVOURITE LANGUAGE?: English
FAVOURITE PAIR OF SHOES?:Mine
FAVOURITE HOLIDAY?: christmas
FAVOURITE ANIMAL?:Reptiles
FAVOURITE CEREAL?: Captain Crunch
FAVOURITE SESAME STREET CHARACTER?: Oscar
FAVOURITE CANDY?: Campino
FAVOURITE COLOR?: Red & Black
FAVOURITE CAR?: Mustangs or mante carlos
FAVOURITE COUNTRY?:australia
FAVOURITE MONTH?:august
FAVOURITE PLACE TO VISIT?: anywhere but here
FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK?: friay
FAVOURITE JOB?: eww work
FAVOURITE TIME OF DAY?: nite
FAVOURITE CELEBRITY?: edward norton
FAVOURITE MEMORY?: Thers many
FAVOURITE SHOE BRAND?: no preference
FAVOURITE CLOTHES BRAND? no brand names thanx
FAVOURITE SEASON?: autumn
FAVOURITE SUBJECT?: social deviance
*~*LeAsT fAvOrItEs...*~*
LEAST FAVOURITE NUMBER: 0
LEAST FAVOURITE TV SHOWS: Reality shows
LEAST FAVOURITE MOVIES: theres a bunch
LEAST FAVOURITE SINGER/GROUPS: Eminem
LEAST FAVOURITE SONGS:anything rap
LEAST FAVOURITE CDS: anything rap
LEAST FAVOURITE MUSIC VIDEOS: theres a bunch
LEAST FAVOURITE BOOKS: romance
LEAST FAVOURITE MAGAZINE: i dont know
. LEAST FAVOURITE CATALOG: yay shopping
.. LEAST FAVOURITE FLOWER:lillys
LEAST FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?: beer.
LEAST FAVOURITE WEBSITE: Live journal
LEAST FAVOURITE SHAMPOO: head and shoulders
LEAST FAVOURITE SOAP: lever 2000
LEAST FAVOURITE RADIO STATION: once that play crap music
LEAST FAVOURITE TV CHANNEL:any station that plays reality tv
LEAST FAVOURITE BOARD GAME:sscrabble
LEAST FAVOURITE CHOCOLATE BAR: caramilk
LEAST FAVOURITE FOOD: anyhting with a bone in it .. ewwww gag
LEAST FAVOURITE DRINK:pop
LEAST FAVOURITE GUM: that gag gum that turns ur teeth black
LEAST FAVOURITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?: butterscotch
LEAST FAVOURITE BEANIE BABY?:i dont know .. the ugly one?
LEAST FAVOURITE FLAVOR OF POPSICLE?:chocolate
LEAST FAVOURITE DISNEY MOVIE?:sleeping beauty
LEAST FAVOURITE CARD GAME?: eucher i dont know how to play
LEAST FAVOURITE RESTAURANT?:express
LEAST FAVOURITE SMELL?: barf
LEAST FAVOURITE BODY PART?: FEET!!!! ugh..GAG
. LEAST FAVOURITE TOOTHPASTE?:that orange stuff
LEAST FAVOURITE COMIC STRIP?: Cathy....stupid neo-feminists and their many issues
LEAST FAVOURITE LANGUAGE?: anything i dont understand
LEAST FAVOURITE PAIR OF SHOES?:white
LEAST FAVOURITE HOLIDAY?:Valentines day
LEAST FAVOURITE ANIMAL?: raccoons
LEAST FAVOURITE CEREAL?: cocopuffs
LEAST FAVOURITE SESAME STREET CHARACTER?: big bird
LEAST FAVOURITE CANDY?: wigleys
LEAST FAVOURITE COLOUR?: yellow
LEAST FAVOURITE CAR?:Lambobinis
LEAST FAVOURITE COUNTRY?:Canada
LEAST FAVOURITE MONTH?: April...I HATE EXAMS!!!!!
LEAST FAVOURITE PLACE TO VISIT?: anything to do with doctors
LEAST FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK?: mondays
LEAST FAVOURITE JOB?:haah . work..
LEAST FAVOURITE TIME OF DAY?morning
LEAST FAVOURITE CELEBRITY?:minnie driver
LEAST FAVOURITE MEMORY?: getting dumped
LEAST FAVOURITE SHOE BRAND?: anything brand named
LEAST FAVOURITE CLOTHES BRAND?: anything brand named
LEAST FAVOURITE SEASON?:spring
LEAST FAVOURITE SUBJECT?: math
*~*PrEfErEnCeS...*~*
CARPET or FLOOR?: Carpet
TRUTH or DARE?: Dare
LOTS OF ACQUAINTANCES or ONE BEST FRIEND?: One best friend
MATH or SCIENCE?: science
BEING HOT or COLD?: Cold...
LIGHTS ON or OFF?: off
DAY or NIGHT?: nite
COKE or PEPSI?: pepsi
7UP or SPRITE?: sprite
BRITNEY or CHRISTINA?:sluts
MICHAEL or JANET JACKSON?:micheal
RADIO or TV?: radio
PEN or PENCIL?: pen
CHOCOLATE or VANILLA?: vanilla
SMILE or FROWN?: smile!
SUNSET or SUNRISE?:sunset and then sunrise
MOONLIGHT or SUNLIGHT?: moonlight
GUYS or GIRLS?: guys
REGULAR or CHOCOLATE MILK?: regular
BRUNETTES, BLONDES or REDHEADS?: blondes
TOM CRUISE or TOM HANKS?: cruise
TRUNKS/SPEEDO or BIKINI/ONE PIECE?: trunks for guys and one piece for me
HAT or VISOR?: hat
CD or TAPE?: both
STAR WARS or STAR TREK?: gag to both
WINE or BEER?:beer
BOXERS/BRIEFS or THONG/GRANNY PANTIES?:boxers for men and boy cut for girls
LOVE or LUST?:love
GOLD or SILVER?: silver
DIAMOND or PEARL?: diamonds
ON THE PHONE or IN PERSON?:in person
HUGS or KISSES?:both
*~*YoUr FrIeNdS...*~*
FRIENDS: what about them?
MOST SHY?:haha.. none
CRAZIEST?: sarah..haha
FUNNIEST?: i dont know.. me?
MOST HYPER?: andrea
CLOSE TALLEST?: Chris 7'1
SHORTEST?: jessie
MOST ANNOYING?: haha they all have their moments
GIVES THE BEST ADVICE?: sarah
COOLEST?: they are all cool
NICEST CLOTHES?: sarah.. my style LOL
NICEST PERSONALITY?: michelle
NICEST WRITING?: i dont know
NICEST VOICE?:haha.. no one?
NICEST EYES?: i dont know
NICEST ASS?: no idea
NICEST SMILE?: no idea
NICEST PARENTS?: all our paretns are NUTZ
BEST GIRL FRIENDS?: sarah, michelle, tori, chelsie
BEST GUY FRIENDS?: to many to name.. but alex takes top
*~*LoVe...*~*
WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?: nose, eyes, smile, laugh
WHAT'S THE MOST IMPORTANT THING THAT EVERY RELATIONSHIP SHOULD HAVE?: trust and honesty
BIGGEST TURN-ON?: biting
BIGGEST TURN-OFF?: annoying behaviour
DO YOU HAVE A B/F or G/F?: No
THEIR NAME: HA
HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN GOING OUT?: Im not
WHAT IS THE SWEETEST THING A B/F OR G/F HAS DONE FOR YOU?: Woke me up at 230am, with a kiss on his way home from work
DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?: yes
THEIR NAME: wouldnt u like to know
WHO WAS YOUR FIRST KISS WITH?: david
WHEN WAS IT?: grade 3
WHO WAS YOUR LAST B/F or G/F?: Dan?
HOW LONG DID YOU GO OUT FOR?: 2 months?
HOW LONG WAS YOUR LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?: 2 years and 7 months
HOW SHORT WAS YOUR SHORTEST RELATIONSHIP?: 3 weeks
IS IT RIGHT TO FLIRT IF YOU HAVE A B/F OR G/F?: yes.. look but not touch
*~*HaVe YoU eVeR?...*~*
CHEATED ON SOMEONE?: yea, but not proud of it
BEEN CHEATED ON?: prolly
CHEATED ON A TEST OR EXAM?: Of course
HAD A ONE NIGHT STAND?: yes
HURT SOMEONE PHYSICALLY?: yes but they liked pain?
BEEN HURT PHYSICALLY?: but it was a good hurt .. lol
HURT SOMEONE EMOTIONALLY?: yes
BEEN HURT EMOTIONALLY?: yes
BEEN SUSPENDED FROM SCHOOL?: yes
KISSED SOMEONE?: yes
GOTTEN DETENTION?: yes
HAD SEX WITH A STRANGER?: yes
BEEN DRUNK?: yes
SMOKED?: yes
TAKEN AN ILLEGAL SUBSTANCE?: yes
BROKEN A LAW?: me no never
BEEN ARRESTED?: not yet
BROKEN A BONE?: my finger
BROKEN A HEART?: yes
HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN?: yes.
HAD STITCHES?: nope
BEEN IN JAIL?: nope
SAVED A CHAT CONVERSATION?: they're all saved...
BEEN PULLED OVER?: yes
RUN AWAY FROM HOME?: yes
BEEN IN A CAR CRASH?: yes
BEEN INSPIRED?: no
BEEN AN INSPIRATION?: no
BEEN FAMOUS FOR 15 MINUTES?: nope
RIDDEN IN A LIMOUSINE?: yes
WON ANY SPECIAL AWARDS?: yes
*~*Do YoU BeLiEvE iN?...*~*
GOD?: no
YOURSELF?: no
LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?: no
TRUE LOVE?: no
HOROSCOPES?: yes
GHOSTS?: i dunno
SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE?: yes
MARRIAGE?: yes
DIVORCE?: if it has to be done
SANTA/TOOTH FAIRY/EASTER BUNNY?: absolutely
FIGMENTS OF YOUR FUCKING IMAGINATION! yes
MAGIC?: sure
HURTING OTHERS TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER?: no
HURTING YOURSELF TO FEEL BETTER?: have
ABORTION?: yes
DEATH PENALTY?: yes
CLONING?: no
*~*WoUlD yOu EvEr?...*~*
DYE YOUR HAIR?: yes
GET A TATTOO?: yes i have 2
GET A PIERCING SOMEWHERE?: i have 13
CHANGE SOMETHING ABOUT YOURSELF?: yes
CHANGE SOMETHING ABOUT SOMEONE ELSE?: no
BE INVISIBLE?: no
WANT TO ABLE TO READ SOMEONE’S MIND?: men
SEE SOMEONE IN PARTICULAR?: yes
SEE SOMEONE WHO’S NOW DEAD?: sure
DO WHATEVER YOU WANTED?: yes
WANT TO BE ABLE TO TALK TO ANIMALS?: no
*~*Do YoU?...*~*
HAVE A CAR?: no
HAVE A CHILD?: nope
HAVE DIMPLES?: yes
GAMBLE?: rarely
TAKE RISKS?: yes
LIE?: yes
CHEAT?: no
PLAY STRIP POKER?: no
SKINNY DIP?: yes
LIE TO YOUR PARENTS?: all the time
SNEAK OUT?: yes
HAVE A CURFEW?: no
DRINK & DRIVE?: well a few beers but not drunk
REMEMBER DREAMS?: most of them
HAVE A PENPAL?: use to
HAVE A TALENT?: i dont think so
HAVE A TATTOO?: 2
ANY PIERCINGS?: 13
TALK TO YOURSELF?: once ina while
EXPRESS YOURSELF?: no
MAKES ENEMIES EASILY?: no
HAVE A MOST EMBARASSING MOMENT?: alot.. but its hard to embarrass me
HAVE A LUCKY ITEM?: rubbing strange mens bald heads
SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?: 73
FEAR SOMETHING?: being alone
LIKE TO MEET NEW PEOPLE?: of course.. but no more bar boys
GO TO REUNIONS?: every year
ANGER EASILY?: nope
CRY EASILY?: only when i laugh
LAUGH SO HARD YOU CRY?: all the time
HAVE INSIDE JOKES WITH PEOPLE?: to many to keep track of
SPIT WHEN YOU TALK?: lol..i think i have
WEAR GLASSES OR CONTACTS?: both
DITCH PEOPLE?: have
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: no
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: no
WRITE IN CURSIVE OR PRINT?: a mixture of both
LIKE FIRE?: love it!
LIKE THE TASTE OF BLOOD?: my own
.*~*ArE yOu?...*~*
HYPER?: when m drunk or high
SENSITIVE?: no
ATTRACTIVE OR UNATTRACTIVE?: unattractive...i'm the ugly child of the family
FUNNY?: haha i can make michelle pee her pants
TALL OR SHORT?: "medium
SMART OR NOT-SO-SMART?: not so smart but there
SERIOUS OR CRAZY?: Crazy
LAID-BACK OR UPTIGHT?: Laid-back
EASY GOING?: ya
WEIRD OR NORMAL?: Weird
PSYCHO?: almost
ATHLETIC?: haha no not really,
A NERD?: yea maybe
A SLUT?: no
GHETTO?: nooooo
A BITCH?: yes and i work hard for that title
TWO FACED?: no, if i have a problem with u.. i tend to pull it straight out
OBNOXIOUS?: nah
IMMATURE OR MATURE?: can be both
HARD TO GET ALONG WITH?: iNOPE
A GOOD FRIEND?: yes
IMPATIENT?: yes
BRAVE?: sure
SHY?: not really
PESSIMISTIC OR OPTIMISTIC?: OPTIMISTIC
LOUD OR QUIET?: can be both
VERY loud HAPPY?: haha yea
*~*WhEn WaS tHe LaSt TiMe YoU?...*~*
CRIED?: its been a few weeks
GOT A NOTE/LETTER?: 2 weeks ago
LAUGHED?: today
TALKED?: 10 mins ago
WENT SHOPPING?: its been a while
WENT TO THE MOVIES?: when i was in peterbough with kelly and tori
*~*OtHeR qUeStIoNs...*~*
IF YOU COULD GO BACK TO ANY DAY WHAT DAY WOULD IT BE?: i dont know
WHAT’S ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?: writing, pictures, articles, slogans
WHAT’S UNDER YOUR BED?: nothing.. dust?
WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?: black hoodie, and hospital pants
WHERE ARE YOU?: at my computer
WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO BE WHEN YOU’RE OLDER?: no idea
WILL YOU GET MARRIED?: i want to..
WILL YOU HAVE CHILDREN?: 2 would be nice
WHAT IS THE WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: denial
WHAT IS THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: the feeling of being wanted
DO YOU LIKE YOUR NAME?: nope
WHAT ARE YOU DOING TOMORROW?: work
THE THING YOU DID AND WISH YOU DIDN’T?: let you go to easily
THE THING YOU DIDN’T DO AND WISH YOU HAD?: held tighter
HONEYMOON LOCATION?: islands
WHAT'S SOMETHING YOU CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT?: my independence
YOU KNOW I'M AROUND WHEN YOU HEAR..?: me my sarcasim |
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| ... Chemical Smile .... |
[Apr. 30th, 2005|08:11 pm] |
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She lost her focus yesterday
She lost her focus in the sun
She sits and stares at it for hours
She says she likes to go outside
She gets hung up on the wind
She gets lost inside the happy noise
Sometimes I don't understand her
Sometimes I don't want to understand her
She says no, no, no, no, no, no
She don't want no double life
She says I should know why
She seems happier at night
Her color TV and her chemical smile
I don't wanna know the reason
I don't wanna know the reason why
She says, she says, she says, she says, she says
Jesus owes her money
She says, she says, she says, she says, she says
The angels are her friends
What the hell does that mean?
She's got the chemical smile
Yeah she's got a chemical smile
Yeah she's got the chemical smile
Baby's got a chemical smile
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I dunno, I listened to an old tape I found today, and Yes many of you may know of this band whether or not u like them is irrelivant, Everclear?
hahaha yea I dunno, i found it while cleaning my room, it has a whole bunch of thier songs on it. I still dont mind thier music to this day...wierd eh?
anyhow, I mst go shower and get ready, Michelle will be here soon, and then I have to get a vehicle to go meet sarah and ryan in st kitts.. Hmmm.. lets see how well this goes over...
Later Dayz
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| what does it take for guys to get the hint?? |
[Apr. 30th, 2005|03:07 pm] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
| |  different | ] |
| [ | imaginary noises |
| | THE TIDE IS HIGH--BLONDIE | ] |
Session Start: Tuesday, April 26, 2005
[08:05:49 AM] F: hi
[08:05:49 AM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[08:05:53 AM] *K: ?
[08:06:53 AM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[05:34:15 PM] F: kiss
[05:35:17 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[06:00:17 PM] F: ;)
[06:00:17 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[06:01:19 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[06:05:40 PM] *K: gag
[06:05:43 PM] * FIRTHMANDAN is now Away (idle)
[06:06:41 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
Session Start: Wednesday, April 27, 2005
[10:04:11 AM] F: hi
[10:05:09 AM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[10:18:21 AM] F: (K)
[10:19:21 AM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[11:05:28 AM]F: talk to me
[11:05:29 AM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[11:56:02 AM] *K: why so u can tell michelle lies about me
again?
fuck that.. im not walking in to that again
[12:45:55 PM] F: slowdown i said that shit to piss her off
and it work
[12:46:23 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[01:36:43 PM] F: hi
[01:37:01 PM] *K: ...
[01:37:25 PM] F: whats ur problem i never did shit to u
[01:39:07 PM] *K: u got michelle pissed at me..
and then ignored me once again for a few dayz..
then when i finally decide i cant go thru this BS with
ur mind games anymore and tell u not to talk to me.. u
msg me on my phone..
then u get irritated and call me fat..
soooo what do u think is gunna happen dan?
[01:40:07 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[01:40:29 PM] F: get married
[01:40:30 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[01:41:25 PM] [ *K: ahhh!
are u nutz
ur like a fucking walking talking 8 ball..
anything can pop up, and half the time its sumthing u
dont like !
[01:41:52 PM] F: 8 ball?
[01:42:37 PM] F: u love it
[01:43:54 PM] *K: ya u know spin it and it says sumthing..
NO I REALLY DONT..
i hate the fact that u are here and there when ever u
please,
i hate the fact that u think u can do what ever and not
have consequences
i hate the fact that i know NOTHING about u and
i hate the fact that, u claim to wanna make an attempt
to make things work.. BUT it never happpens
[01:44:55 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[01:46:20 PM] F: dont hate the player hate the game baby
girl
[01:47:33 PM] *K: i do.. i hate games...
so the only thing i can do is choose to lose this game
and walk away smiling
[01:48:07 PM] F: relax
[01:48:23 PM] F: what u maen i can be anywere
[01:49:23 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[01:52:14 PM] *K: u like me u dont.. u like my friends then
u dont..
ur up for doing sumthing then u bail
then u drink and turn into a person i care to have
nothing to do with..
i dont get u, and i know i never will..
and i dont like it.. soo if the only way to keep me sane
is to walk away.. i have to do that
[01:52:52 PM]F: slowdown
[01:52:54 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[01:54:11 PM] *K: why?
[01:54:43 PM] F: cause your acting crazy
[01:54:57 PM] *K: how?
[01:55:09 PM]F: ^o)
[01:55:39 PM] *K: ive been going around in circles for the
past 2 months with u..
and i think this is the first time i havent been crazy
[01:56:09 PM] F: is that good?
[01:56:14 PM] * *Kara*Bear* is now On The Phone
[01:56:17 PM] * *Kara*Bear* is now Away
[01:56:39 PM]*K: for me.. yes..
[01:56:53 PM] F: :|
[01:57:30 PM] *K: do u get anything i am saying rite now?
[01:57:40 PM] F: yes
[01:57:50 PM] [13:57:50] *K: then what am i saying dan
[01:58:21 PM]F: that iam a bad dude and u dont want to
talk to me
[01:58:48 PM] *K: im saying .. to keep my sanity, i CANT talk to u..
[01:59:18 PM] F: ok if thats the way u want it then thats
the way it will bw ok...bye
[01:59:21 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[01:59:56 PM] *K: bye !
Session Start: Saturday, April 30, 2005
[02:02:37 PM] F: (K)
[02:02:37 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[02:03:39 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
[02:09:35 PM] F: hi
[02:09:35 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation
[03:22:26 PM] F: hi
[03:22:26 PM] FIRTHMANDAN has left the conversation.
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Is he fucking retarded? i mean really i tell him i dont wanna talk to him anymore and he still sends me kisses? wtf... hes got serious problems.. and he wont leave me alone.. wtf do i do now? wtf have i gotten myself into?
y couldnt i be like his friend jay and walk away the second time we hung out? why do i have to be so nice to ppl when i meeet them... ahhh!!!
my fault should of listen to michelle ALONG time ago an ended it the first time he was an ass to me..
i hate men, they make no sense and they seem to think they can do what they want have not have consequences to their actions.. well fuck that i am NOT talking to him ever again..
i really need to find a down to earth "real" boy..
i need to have one that makes me truely happy and not have to make excuses for them..
does any exist out there?
i either find to clingy or to possessive, OOOR the to distant, not caring enuff, cant figure them out cuz their secretive.....
there are NO happy mediums..
im done with dating for a while.. i realy cant do this anymore.. lol.. when i can get my head into the game where i can decipher a "good" guy to a "retarded" guy, then i will date again.. but until then.. fuck that lol.. ill keep my distance thanx
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umm ok next news...
im "not" moving out.. i cant find a room mate lol..
well i can but things came up.. so thats not gunna work .. which is fine.. at least this way, im getting my own phone line, my own car, andpay them "rent" so i can make my own rules..
i already told my parents that if i stay this is the way its gunna be.. and they were not happy with that.. but none the less they have no choice unless they kick me out... and i cant see them doing that... anyhow, im awaiting sum car insurance quotes from my insurance agent "darlene" so thats cool... by next month or two i will have a car .. yay me...
what else.. school is done for a week.. i have to go back may 9th, till july 29th.. grrrr.. lol. my fault i decided to take sum summer programs and thats not to bad at least it will keep me busy during the summer and not allow me to be a house hermit completely.. haha .. at least ill have 2 days off a week except working, so i can do things then..
plus i wont be working mondays, so that works..
Ryan is coming down this weekend to spend it with sarah.. and i think she got me his transformer sweater.. YAY.. i heart u sarah.. haha .. i walked thru his door when we went there the other weekend , and i seen it hanging there and i was like OMG I WANT IT.. and then he was joking that we can have it.. but i didnt grabit.. so sarah talked to him and he might be bringing it today !!!! haha yay me.. im excited..
michelle is coming over tonite, and then sarah and ryan might be coming to pick us up and we are gunna take him to the tunnel.. so that would be cool... i just hope it stops raining.. i cant wait for tonite..
umm next.. i am procrastinating on my room.. im doing laundry surely but slowly.. ahah .. it will get done.. i have to make room in my room for a desk.. cuz im buying myself a computer.. soo we shall see how well that works out.. ahaha.. i cant picture it working .. ahaha .. oh well.. i will squueze it in there.. my room is sooo cluttered.. i need to throw stuff out.. haha .. but there is nothing to throw out.. I AM NOT TOUCHING THE ANIMALS.. haha .. they can stay on my bed .. ahah .. an thats basicall the only useless things in ,y room..
OOOH i get to mount the rest of my sconsis today.. yay me.. i need one more ..to make it complete so i have to go back to V.V. and pick one up if i can find one that matches.. Hmmm.. i think that is it for now tho.. i should get back to my room..
Well LATER DAYZ !!!
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| REMEMBERING |
[Apr. 27th, 2005|02:43 am] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
| |  i dunno | ] |
| [ | imaginary noises |
| | the flares | ] |
plz dont say i love u
those words touch me much to deeply
and they make my core tremble
dont think u realize the power u have over me
and plz dont look at me like that
plz dont kiss me so sweet
it makes me crave 1000 more kisses to follow
and plz dont touch me like that
it makes every other embrace seem pale and shallow
plz dont come so close
plz dont bring me flowers
they only say the things u'd say
dont try to understand me
ur hands already know to much anyway
and when u look in my eyes
plz know my heart is in ur hands
its nothing that i understand
but when im in ur arms u have complete power over me
so be gentle if u plz
becuz ur hands are in my hair
but my heart is in ur teeth
and it makes me want to make u near me always
i want to be near u ALWAYS
dont walk to close
dont breathe so soft
dont talk so sweet
dont sing
dont lay oh so near
please let me forget
all those sweet smiles
all of the passion
all of the peace to heat and the pain
all those blue skies
where ur words were my freedom
to many times ive cared to much
i stood on the edge
and said that u held my hand
and knowing to well
i couldnt hide from those eyes
plz dont let me fall in love with u again
**there's no perfect guy.. there's just guys who'll try to be perfect for you** |
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[Apr. 27th, 2005|02:01 am] |
Stollen from JODI:
TEN random things about me:
1. 13 piercings
2. 2 tattoos
3. easy going
4. sarcastic
5. nerdy
6. respectful (to an extent...just dont piss me off)
7. come up with crazy sayings that ppl easily pick up
8. i find interest in "different"
9. push over
10. feet gross me out
NINE ways to be my friend:
1. be kind
2. honest
3. no back stabbing
4. avoid meladrama
5. enjoy road trips
6. do not fall under any of the catagories, nutz drunks pimps or pervert
7. be different
8. querky and out going
9. having sum of the same "interests" couldnt be a bad thing
EIGHT things I want to do before I die (in no particular order):
1. live?
2. learn everything i can about anything possible
3. find happiness
4. travel the world
5. own a buisness of sum sort (clothing/bar/cafe)
6. not have to work for someone else
7. succeed
8. become the snow white of my fairy tale
SEVEN things that annoy me:
1. religion.. (its a cult)
2. living at home
3. lies/ignorance
4. waiting
5. drama created by RETARDS (mostly girls who think its cool to be a retard)
6. ppl who think they are better then everyone else
7. racism
SIX things I believe in:
1. deism
2. the sky is BLACK
3. hahah drugs ( more meaning behind it then u think)
4. useless information will help me out in the long run
5. anyone can be what they want as long as they try
6. 98% of WELFARE RETARDS DESERVE NO PITTY
FIVE things I'm afraid of:
1. being alone
2. failure
3. myself
4. clowns
5. creepy nutz drunks pimps and PERVERTS
FOUR of my favorite items in my room:
1. the color of it
2. my BED
3. my book collection
4. my carebears ( and all my stuffed animals ... 73)
THREE things I do everyday:
1. wake up?
2. talk to michelle LOL
3. have at least ONE handicap msg me
TWO things I want to do right now:
1. talk to u
2. sleep and dream
ONE person I want to see right now:
1. YOU |
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| Hmmm.. interesting |
[Apr. 24th, 2005|10:48 pm] |
Your Seduction Style: The Natural |
You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.
Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.
You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!
People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast. |
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[Apr. 23rd, 2005|03:31 pm] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
| | superfantastic | ] |
| [ | imaginary noises |
| | WINNERS--MUDMEN | ] |
Can you leave me here alone now I dont wanna hear you say That you know me That I should be always doin what you say Cause Im tryin' to get through today And there's one thing I know -Chorus- I dont wanna think about you or think about me Dont wanna figure this out I dont wanna think about you or think about nothin' Dont wanna talk this one out I won't let you bring me down 'cause I know, I don't wanna think about you, don't wanna think about you When I wake up here tomorrow Things will never be the same Cause I won't wait Cause you won't change And you'll always be this way Now I'm gonna get through today And there's one thing I know -Chorus- I dont wanna think about you or think about me Dont wanna figure this out I dont wanna think about you or think about nothin' Dont wanna talk this one out This time I won't let you bring me down Won't let you shut me out 'This time I know, I don't wanna think about you Run away, run away, running as fast as I can Run away, run away, I'll never come back again Run away, run away (I don't wanna think about you or think about me Dont wanna figure this out I don't wanna think about you or think about me Dont wanna talk this one out) -Chorus- I don't wanna think about you or think about me Dont wanna figure this out I don't wanna think about you or think about nothin' Dont wanna talk this one out This time I won't let you bring me down Won't let you shut me out 'This time I know, I don't wanna think about you, Run away, run away ,I dont wanna think about you Run away, run away ,I dont wanna think about you Run away, run away ,I dont wanna think about you Run away, run away..... ****************************************************
this song brings me to this convo taken place this morning over text msging....
dan (10:40am): Hi
kara(11:32am): Umm who is this
dan (11:33am): What
kara(11:35am): Who are you and how did u get my number and why are u text msging me
dan (12:08pm): You trying to be funny today
kara(12:10pm): Im quite serious dont msg my phone unless you tell me who u are
dan (12:11PM): This is the firthman
kara(12:12pm): Um i know u from where
dan (12:13pm): Who is this
kara(12:14pm): Kara maybe u have the wrong number
dan (12:15pm): Fuck shut up byrd
kara(12:18pm): You have the wrong number glad we figured that out now i would apprieciate u not wasting my money bt texting me thanx
dan (12:19pm): What wrong number
kara(12:22pm): This one i dont know u and u dont seem like a pleasent person so i want nothing to do with u
dan (12:23pm): Fuck fat ph
kara(12:24pm): Excuse me
And that is where it stops.. im done with him and his stupidity.. he tried to get michelle and i angry at eachother.. he claimed that we hang out all the time behind her back.. which we dont.. i dont have time, between school wrk and the times im with michelle..ahha where the fuck does he fit in? then he attempted to claim we made out.. ahaha... well thers a joke, imnea why the fuck on earth would i have sumone elses saliva in my mouth while my tongue is healing? wo i want an infection? NOOOOOO.. then he tried to say he made out with my friend.. HAH.. she doesnt even like him near her, let alone have him close enuff to plant one on her.. so i called him and left a msg on his answering machine saying i am pissed that hes trying to start rumors about us.. and then i hung up.. and then i told him that i didnt wannt him to talk to me ever again.. so now 2 days later this convo (above) takes place.. so im serious,... as far as i am concerned he doesnt exist.. i never met him and i dont want any reminders.. so that is done and done..
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as of other things.. i got my nipples pierced last nite.. hurt like a bitch to sleep.. ahah .. but it was good times... i walked up the stairs, to see this hot boy sitting there his name was nipper.. iwas all panicy caz i looked like a drowned rat ( caught in the rain) anyhow, crystle was there and took me inside where mike (piercer) got set up.. kim crystle and i talked outside after i signed the forms.. and then mike came and got me when he was done setting up.. i got them done.. crystle watched, and she was squirming.. omg she was the one makeing me nervous.. ahah .. so when mike shut the curtains,nipper yelled hey does it hurt yet.. i laughed and said .. dont be ssyiang htat.. he laughed.. so it wsa over and done with in about 5 mins.. god, all it felt like was sharp lil pinches for split seconds.. not bad at all.. so it was only like 2 and i decided to hang out with them until i had to go to work.. kim ( mikes wife) showed me their dogs and pictures of their puppies.. nipper and i talked.. hes single and cute hmmm... haha .. crystle was liek,... hey kara i can set it up **winkwink** haha .. ilaughed i told her to wait till i come in looking half descent and the piercings are healed ;) haha.. she laughed and siad ok.. so we shall see.. hes 28 so thats not bad at all.. eh sarah.. at least pierced is YOUNGER...
speaking of which sarah and i are on fairly good terms again.. we spend a few hours talking about alot of things and well we fgigured out never to listne to anyone everyagain.. if we are pissed about sumtihng confront them rite then and there.. and thats that..
umm last nite after work i came home showered and then went to alex's... devon lyndzy and turner were there.. turner bugged me the entire nite, lyndzy and i talked and devon was into his porn lol.. at about 3 i left to go home.. i was exhausted.. so now tonite im off yet again.. i hope it all goes as planned.. **fingures crossed**
( Caution: Nipple Piercing Shot (XXX RATING) ) |
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| ...quiz:stolen from kornkween... |
[Apr. 21st, 2005|12:47 pm] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
| | content | ] |
| [ | imaginary noises |
| | your all i need-- motley crue | ] |
You are the bad boy / girl of your school. You
have little faith in yourself and usually find
escape in some sort of addicting substance or
yourself. You would rather torture others
above anything else. You regularly skip
school and when you go, always tend to ditch a
certain class. Some classmates can fear you
while others pity you...and your family. (No
offense) Your cruel behavior and abject
personality tends to single you out from the
crowd...and you prefer life this way at times.
However, lonliness can rear its ugly head and
force you seek a way to silence it. But be
warned, your path is dangerous... but only a
strong person can walk this road.
Some
ideal occupations for you can be a Police
officer, Celebrity (who doesn't love the
badasses?), Wrestler, Polotician, or some sort
of leader. Either way, your destined to be
known by many.
What type of teenager are you?
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ok so the last few days have been interesting.. i actually went to sum classes, i realize that in order to pass i need to attend class.. well i should of figured that out along time ago.. saturday, umm michelle timmy gary and i went to the midway, and hung out there.. we got like 6oo sumodd tickets, so we split them and got crappy prizes, but the dude helping us was an idiot, so i took him lol.. i got 3 extra prizes.. so sue me,,, i wanted a bottle cap opener..and then we went outside and sat on the stairs, michelle took pictures, and well this old guy comes over and says he wants to take our pic so we say ok..
now im watching him, cuz i can picture him taking off with my digital, so i was w/e.. and then he tells us that we should walk over this way so we have sumthing in the pic that ppl will know where we are .. so i state, we live around here and we can take pics when ever we want.. hes was oh ok.. and went really sraight faced and looked at me and said " i can tell ur going to make sum man really miserable one day" and he walked away... i was shocked, did not find it all that funny int he begining.. gary was rolling on the ground in laughter and michelle told the guy he had made her nite.. and timmy was "giggling" i really didnt know what to do but give him a glare.. **shruggs** i was speachless... then this broad comes out andw as like ok u guys need to get off the steps.. and we so sat there a min.. gary and timmy got up, but i didnt move.. i could feel her eyes burning the back of my head.. so i get up im my own time, and when she turned her back just to be a bitch, i sat back down, and she turned around and apparenly gave me this death glare.. iw as laughing pretty hard.. so we walked down the hill got pis of decapitated heads ( not really.. they were wax heads in the window)
walked across the street, had pics taken .. timmy in the fat man,
every one in the chair,
 
and me grabing the tall guys package..
now while taking this pic alot of tourist were stating to themselves and their group " omg what is she doing" "is she really touching him" and i hear d a lil girl state" mom is that appropriate" .. i dont think i have laughed sooo hard in my life.. we left and went to the rainforest cafemichelle nad i took pics of us on stools that looked like animal butts.
michelle on a duck and i on a zebra.. it was cool.. then i found a ticket stubb on the ground walked to the counter and was like is this still good.. she says yes.. so i say .. ok i want this this and this ... so i got prizes.. lol.. we walked up the hill, stoped at the fun house.. i ask the lady if i can have a my pic taken inside the spinning tube.. she says ok but be fast.. so i do..
michelle tries to take it while i prop myself in it.. and nope no good.. SHE DIDNT TURN IT ON.. so i fell laughing my ass off.. lets try this again.. i prop my self up an das its going around, michelle takes the pic and doesnt my shirt fly up, as im upside down.. no not impressed.. i drop my self fix my shirt and laugh my ass off.. say thanx and walk away.. we walk further up the hill, and watch the kareoko, and i play with this sticky hand.. well i swung it and it got stuck to garys hood, and i pulled it off but as i did, it returned and crakced him in the face, the ppl walking up the hill all saw and laughed , and hten as gary got hit in the face he put his head back and cracked it off the metal railing behind him.. i dont think i have laughed soo hard in my life.. i had to sit down or i would of pissed my pants.. then we run into my sister and her 2 friends lindsey and kely.. talk for a bit and then we run offf to the "phone booth" by ripleys.. anyhow, we notice that the hand wax thingy was there, so we check the prices, and its like $13 for a hand.. how dumb.. so i looked around, and realized, no one was there,, so i stuck my hand in the hot green wax.. yes it burned a lil LOL.. uh huh .. stupid mistake.. but funny.. we took off and then my hand was froze in spot..
so that was cool.. we went back to the car, and then headed home, gary wasnt feeling well at this point so he slept the entire way home, and then we all said bye so michelle and i came back here and passed out..
and in the morning i drove her to work,, and that was that weekend...
monday, umm what did do? lol. i think i stayed home..
but none the less, i took my test on tuesday both of them.. eww,,failed the developmental psych test but past social deviance.. as i handed in my social deviance test, deb asked me where is sarah, i told her sick prolly. but i dunno cuz i dont really talk to her anymore, which made me think.. i dont know exactly why we are not speaking.. how horrible is that.. i mean there is a reason but i dont remember it.. but anyhow, after school went to my grandmothers, it was her birthday, so then i went and picked everyone up and headed out to sonics, for kc's tatoo..uh huh .. it went well.. i even got my tongue pierced again..
it hurt a lil bit and it is still swollen.. but none the less its done..
i have an appointment tomorrow at 1 to get my nipples piered.. and if i can get a nice enuff pic of my boobs lol. i may post it.. hahaha.. JOKES.!!!!
anyhow after all that was over and done INCLUDING michelle getting hers done to.. thanx to moi! we headed off to read square for the band show.. i was like maybe half hour, and then notice a tall lurking male across the room from me.. gasp.. awe, hes with a girl.. FUCK!
hAhA I HAD TO LEAVE... it was brad.. and i have no idea who the chick was.. but thats fine.. i chose to walk away.. im not about to go getting all friendly with him especially when hes with a girll i dont neeed to t cause problems for him.. i hope hes happy..
anyhow, so tori michelle and i went to harveys, and then to a park to eat our food.. it was sooo good. but it took for ever to eat.. lol.
oh well.. none the less.. we got bored and cold so we went back to tori's and played monopoly till 230am,
good times.. these are the times i remember..
kk so, we come home, and Pj, comes on line so he decides to come over.. we stand outside, michelle pj and myself till about 445, and then michelle went into bed, so pj and i talked a bit more.. he left and i came in around 5... to be woken up by mom at 7, and i couldnt go back to sleep so i got up at 745 got ready for school and went to write my tests... yay me.. i also arranged for me to take all my tests for abnormal psychology, so thats cool.. and i talked to my philosophy thru film teacher.. he told me to get what i can dont for friday, but i can also write a formal note asking to request for an incomplete, and have him approve it and hten go to see my coordinator and dicuss with her, the option to make up my work.. so imm a do that.. it should be ok.. haha .. **fingers crossed**
but yes after school yesterday i come home.. michelle is still sleeping so i akaken her, and we sitt around have soup and talk, till i have to fo to work.. so off to work i went,,,
it was alrite.. HAHAH.. theres a joke.. i couldnt talk, and i was getting irritated with all the customers.. my boss heard me and told me to go for a break.. it was funny..
anyhow, after work, we went to lava... ooh goood times, HA
nah it wasnt that bad .. but its like theres a stress level thingy there that is just so not appealing..
but around 1 jaxx asks me to go out side with her for a smoke.. so i go.. but on the way out guess who i see.. uh huh .."dan" fuck i was all omg.. michelle is gunna freak and.. id unno .. i didnt know what to do.. so anyhow, we were outside he ame out and started to talk.. and hten michelle came out and u could feeel the hostility.. not cool.. so i avoided it all.. dan and michelle talked and no n o understanding has arose yet.. **im not implying anything here**
but michelle went inside and dan and i talked abit and he is so upset at the fact that michelle hates him,... he told me that b4 anything can me right with us he has to make thigs rite with my friends.. which i thought was decent.. but i dont think i can go back to him.. i can just picture shit going wrong again.. and i dont want it to happen. i am fine being friends with him.. but i think that is all i can be.. **shruggs**
anyhow, umm i talked to sarah and laurie last nite, and it was alrite.. i dont have a problem with them persay.. but i think its just that fact that with everything that has happend.. its not gunan be easy to get them back, nor am i asking things to happen that way.. i just wish things could be normal again. when shit just didnt matter..
i told chris last nite when he asked if i talked to sarah, i said yea kinda, and hes like good.. and i was told him i didnt really remember wy we werent talking in the first place,, i was pissed at the fact she left with him over her friends.. but i mean thats nothing to stay pissed at is it?
and laurie.. well i dunno, theres still things touchy there.. i mean i lost a good friend becuz he got lost in "love".. lol.. i was all fine and dandy with that.. so i guess i can get past it ... i mean that was the only thing that was pissing me off with that..
ok.. but yea... anyhow , we left the bar at around 2:15 and i drove her home,
on the way home we get a phone call from dan asking where we are, and so we told him home.. and he told me to call him later.. so i said ok..
then michelle and i went and got popsicles from 7/11 and then i took her home..
and i came on here to talk to dewayne .. hes an alrite guy.. but kinda creepy at the same time.. like he tells me he likes me and he asked me if i would date sumone who lived far away..
but when i got those msg's it was this morning.. ahah i had faallen asleep at the computer lol..
it was harsh .. so he could be mad at me for ignoring him,.. but i wasnt lol. i can tbelieve i did that..
OOOH.. and this morning my mom, asked me to eat lunch with her.. and then laughed at me..
i was like what.. she said she can hear how swollen my tongue was and htat i shouldnt worry about what my dad says..
oh yes he found out last nite, michelle kinda blurted it out.. oh well.. if hes gunna throw a fit hes a the retard..
im tired of his bullshit anyways.. he gets mad at me for everything.. and then if bryan or kasie does the same freaking hting its fine..
its sooo stupid..
but yea ,, i dunno things will change.. and i have to go get ready for work now, and my hands are starting to get cold from lack of circulation of blood from typing.. and my eyes are starting to hurt..
well yes i suppose this is all for now..i will be back...
Later dayz !!! |
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| ...song for you my dear... |
[Apr. 18th, 2005|12:56 am] |
you, you called me out
you said your done with me
but I cant seem to remember anything at 3am
am I that guy? The one that’s happy hanging with my friends
and 5 drinks in I’m in love again
so if I get drunk and call u up
don’t get pissed and don’t hang up
I know its late but its never too late to be
Another last call casualty
I cant remember what I said
But I swear I meant no harm
I tried to knock on your window
But I set off your alarm
And the days dragged on like a tail pipe band
The nights they ain’t so long
And the taxi cab I’m riding in is blaring our favorite song again
so if I get drunk and call u up
don’t get pissed and don’t hang up
I know its late but its never too late to be
Another last call casualty
I’m sorry a guy picked up the phone
My mind couldn’t leave well enough alone
And after the seventh time he hit *69
He said if he finds me I’ll be dead
But im already in my head
Since hes the one that’s lying with you in your bed
so if I get drunk and call u up
don’t get pissed and don’t hang up
I know its late but its never too late to be
Another last call casualty
so if I get drunk and call u up
don’t get pissed and don’t hang up (another last call casualty)
I know its late but its never too late to be
Another last call casualty
Another last call casualty
so if I get drunk and call u up
don’t get pissed and don’t hang up (another last call casualty)
so if I get drunk and call u up
don’t get pissed and don’t hang up (another last call casualty)
so if I get drunk and call u up
don’t get pissed and don’t hang up (another last call casualty) |
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| ... haha tonite.... |
[Apr. 13th, 2005|12:58 am] |
alrite here we go...
ok so i drive my mom to work,got my pay check.. .went and picked up michelle from work, walked around with timmy and gary and michelle and my sister.. run into ashley thomas ( old highschool acqauintance) umm wonder sum more, go pick up my perscription from walmart.. and then arrange to hang out with jen on the weekend.. hopefully sunday..
and then, we drive out to niagara falls... michelle timmy gary and kasie..hah Gary falls OUT of the van.. all we coudl do was laugh.. we all felt soo bad.. hes so lucky he didnt get hurt..then we walk around the mid way take pics of us.. and then walk up visit marc, and then head out to st kitts to drop off the tattoo kasie wants at sonics..
holly crap they have a lot of ppl there now.. sum girl that runs the cash, a peircer, and jay is still there.. im not sure if matt is or not.. but anyways,, i talked to johnny arranged for him to pierce my tongue again next tuesday, when kasie gets her tattoo, and then maymbe michelle will hhave the guts to get sumthing done **shruggs** anyhow, so jay gives her ( kasie ) an estimate of 160, and thats pretty sweet for what has to be done.. but then again. i didnt get to talk to him cuz he was out back doing sumone elses tattoo... so u never know he may give her a lil better price like he did with sarah and i.. but who knows im not counting on it ..
anyhow ....
MSG FOR SARAH
if u still read this.. or laurie even if sarah doesnt read this u can tell her...........................
johnny gave me the picture of him and sarah he wants me to give it back to her/you.. but i dont know when i will see her/you so i can drop it in ur/her mail box if u/she would like... but i dunno if ur/her parents will appreciate that.. and im not about to go gettign anyone in trouble so get back to me about that.. second he says to tell u/her, to arrange a way to go get ur/her stuff , he hasnt thrown it out just "YET" soo.. i dunno do what u will with that..
im just the messenger..
next we took the boy for a hike at the screaming tunnel.. haha gary got dirty, and almost poked his eye out with a branch.. so we headed back to the van, and gary cleaned his shoes and all was well.. so then we were bored again. so we took the boys to the blue ghost tunnel.. ahah .. well michelles shoe broke, and timmy had to pee but stepped on the remains of an animal carcass, and then we walked down the HUGE mud hill,, michelle was not impressed.. oh well..s o we walked thru, michelle got pissed went back, timmy and gary and myself went further.. came to the middle and it was like an ice cavern.. it was sooo cool.. so we walked thru it.. gary fell into this hug whole... i got water poured on my head, and so did timmy, and then once we passed the ice it was alll under water so we had to turn around and go the other way again.. so we made a train and made sure no one else fell thru holes .. ok so we got out.. and gary ran up the hill apparently tried to jump over the rail... BUT landed onhimself.. so yes he was down for a while.. it was NOT garys nite.. haha
hes a cluts.. ahah and then walking back to the car i tripped myself.. michelle almost pissed herself laughing.. it was humilliating but funny as hell and HURT.. but yes i laughed it off..
but none the less.. after that, we went back into town chilled at tim hortons, and went shopping at the jean warehouse thingy.. timmy tried on jeans .. KC bought a skirt.. i bought two shirts ..then kc and i left went and got my mom i dropped them ( my mom and sister)off at home,. and then picked michelle and timmy up at tim hortons, we went for dinner, and then toplay in a park.. till about 1230.. .. where now i am home nad typing htis.. tonite was fun i enjoyed it..
we have all agreed to go out saturday cuz no one has to work sunday. soo yay us.. gary is driving this time, michelle and i said we would help out withgas if he wanted .. so yea.. another nite out with the boyz.. to much fun..
well i suppose that is all for now.. i have to go to school in the mornign and get set up for my spring courses.. ahah..ewwww.
oh well..
LATER DAYZ! |
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[Apr. 12th, 2005|11:21 am] |
ok, im on here to vent..
i have made alot of bad choices with the last few months..
i have also made some pretty good choices as well..
but none the less heres what i have done and i do feel the need to apologize for the way i went about this, but none the lesss im not changing my mind.. just stated that i could of did it differently..
i have decided to cut ppl out of my life, but thats only cuz i couldnt deal with the drama.. i do need friends but i have plenty of those.. i just mean that with the up and down emotions of everything that happened just taking that step back helped alot..
i rememeber a convo with a certain sumone and i told her that i was taking that step back cuz it was like i was a dog chasing my own tail with everything that was happening.. she agreed...
but none the less, the way i found it easy to decipher who stays and who doesnt was basically on what happened next..
# 1 ditched us.. so i was like uh huh w/e i dont need ppl rite now who are gunna ditch me for sumthing that she knows was a kinda bad idea at the time..
#2 well i decided if she could get my friend to ignore me, and choose her over me on multiple occasions i didnt need either of them.. cuz i mean girls come and go but friends are suppose to be there for ever ... but w/e that was their choice.. ( that takes care of #3 as well but not by choice)
#4 well this was done a long time ago.. but none the less, she feels the need to think shes better then us, soo she gets her own car and decides i dont need them anymore i can drive myself whereever i want whenever i want.. so fine .. have fun...
HAHA.. can u believe it.. i just noticed that all the ppl that i have kinda distanced my self from are all broads..
except one but thats cuz he got thrown into the mix...by "love"
i knew i didnt have female friends for a reason.. i have never had more then a handful of estrogen around since i was in kindergarden.. haha, i mean really.. now i know why.. this is NOT a dig at anyone.. it just shows that i can not get along with women to well becuz of my being picky with everything they do... oh well..
i just wanna say sorry for being a bitch about how i went about it.. it was uncalled for.. but none the less, im not changing my opinions...
anyhow.. on to the next thingy
dan is back callling me, saying he was sorry and that it wasnt him it was the "canadians" talking and yadda yadda yadda.. BLAH BLAH BLAH is what i heard.. i mean fuck.. the other nite was UNCALLED FOR and i will not for get it.. i asked him about the comments he apparently made about me..but he denied them.. hes a comulsive liar to.. I HATE LIES... they irritate me to no extent.. so i called him a "drunk" and said that i cant have anything to do with that.. so he got a lil pissed at that .. and was like, but "babe" thats me, i only drink once a week, and im sorry if u see it that i only see u when im drunk but if i could see u more i would..
i laughed in his face.. i was like i have gave u many opportunities to see me.. sooo, whats ur next exccuse.. but then i had to go back to work.. so i told him im out .. later.. and hung up..
ok next
chris and i hung out the other nite with michelle timm and gary, we were at perkins and then came back here... michelle timm and gary were outside, so chris and i were inside talking, and then moved to my room, we just laid there a bit talking and made out a lil.. it was nice.. and i thought things were going ok.. with us cuz he had stated,
what are u doing tomorrow" i was like i am going out with michelle.. and then he was like wow busy girl,. now u have to make time for ur new guy.. iw as like "new guy"? and he wsa like ya.. so i asked who might that be.. and he said him.. so i was like ok .. deal.. so it was cute..
at around 3 we went outside told timma nd gary and they left, then chris left a bout 15 mins later,,, and i was all happy.. i should of picked him in the fist place.. and well I CHANGE MY MIND.. ahah .. hes ignoring me now..
how the fuck is it that i find the RETARDS!!!! like omg... im soo tired of men at this point they are all the fucking same..
im gunna just go along and ignore them all.. i mean there is NO point in doing anything else.. i get screwed over in the long run.. but i should of guessed this one, like really, him and dan were friends..
jay turned out to be an ass.. dan turned out to be an ass, and now why would i have figured chris was ANY different??? thats rite cuz im the IDIOT..
i just wanna rewind time, and NOT have them pick us up at lava that nite.. cuz ever since then it has beennothing but nightmares... and im tired of it..
ok next..
umm,,,, i dunno, i have a test to write today in developmental psychology.. and i have to set up an appointment to get into classes for spring.. so that should be fun.. i have to write 3 papers, one on the matrix, one on fight club and one on dead alive (i didnt even know this movie existed) anyhow, bleck...
after i write this test im coming home then have to drive my mom to work and then pick up my paycheck and hten go get michelle and then gary and timm as of now plans could change i may ditch them all and actually go to nite school ahhaha yes i was trying to be funny.. ill start to go next week..
anyhow, we are all going to the falls, and meeting up with marc.. should be fun, hes working tonite so we shall see if he can get us into that 4D moving theater thingy for free.. meh.. we can try lol.
anyhow, i dunno what else to write about im pretty tried and i need to shower.. soo , i suppose ill get on that.. cuz i have to leave here and be at the school for 130 to write the test.. ARGH!! this test is gunna kill me.. but im not sure.. i mean its all on menopause and parenting and a few things on the brain.. so i doing think it will be that bad.. soo we shall see.. fingers crossed..
ooh and im actually going to class tomorrow to.. i ahve to get all the test reviews so i can finally write those other tests.. i can still pass this semester so im happy..
will i pass with a 65% haha .. prolly not...but that is my fault and i will try sumhow to get those grades upp .. buts its looking pretty iffie rite now.. my rents are gunna kill me.. but oh well..
im moving out in july, and all will be well i hope.. haha..
well im out ..
later dayz |
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[Apr. 9th, 2005|04:35 pm] |
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| [ | imaginary noises |
| | last train home-- lost prophets | ] |
ok i have never in my life been sooo humiliated in all my life...
the other nite at the road house was the worst nite of my life in a long time..
i cried like a lil girl cuz i was feeling everything and anything under the sun..
sooo pissed..
well the nite starts off rather boring.. ran into deluca and james.. and then i called alex and told him to get down there.. so he shows up we go in have a few drinks and then around 12 alex leaves, so michelle and i go outside to talk to her aunt vicky.. she was trying to pick up scott carins lol.. anyhow, then this older guy started to talk to us,his name was leo.. and he seemed interesting and harmless..haha so i decided hey heres a good person to give us a ride home.. so i flirt with him abit..and he then asks how we are getting home.. i said we are taking a taxi back to my place, so hes like noo.. ill drive u guys .. where do u live.. i said haist st, down by the arena.. ( this guy is the cook at lazy loone, so no not sum random person persay.. he works with brandon, hes like my lil brother) anyhow so i said wow that would be great.. so we went back inside and hte next thing i know is im dancing with this guy in the middle of the dance floor. and michelle is laughing her ass off.. and it was alrite the first song..
but the "second" song, my god he kissed my neck my cheek and then tried for the lips.. eww.. i was like umm wait.. hes like i just really wanna kiss u.. so i was like " i just met u" so he apparently understood,.. and that was cool..so its good we sat back down for a min.. and then went outside to go home.. when all of a sudden dan chris and jay pull up.. so we go over and talk a bit.. they get out i gave dan a kiss, shook jays hand and gave chris a hug..and then went inside again .. and then leo got pissed, cuz we were not leavign with him, michelle had told him that we couldnt leavecuz our friends from niagara falls had just showed up.. so he left, gave me a hug kissed michelle on the hand.. and well yea that started the nite off to a bad start.. dan was like who was that .. i told him leo he was gunna give us a ride home,but we decided to stay here with u guys.. so it was all really awkward.. cuz jay didnt wanna be there at all, and then dan was getting more and more pissed i went outside, and then apparently dan started to rant about how if i want chris i can have him and dan will treat me like how jay treated michelle, and what not.. but i didnt know of anyof this until later, when i got home.. anyhow, i was outside talking to chris and dan came out and pretended everything was fine. kissed me and hugged me.. so i was like ok.. and the next thing i know hes dropping beer bottles to be an ass, he apparently got in an arguement with the lady bartender, and then it BLEW up from there.. dan was picking fights with EVERYONE, calling us whores and telling us we can fuck our selves cuz he wants nothign to do with us, nor me.. and then i was getting more and more upset.. i had to walk away.. but just as i was about to get up, dan started to go after the "bald cook" all cuz he was looking at him funny.. like fuck! and he even shoved michelle.. so i got up left.. well went around the corner.. at this poitn i was crying.. i have never beeen soo humiliated in my life.. like i know these ppl, and i cant show my face there again.. anyhow so im crying and sitting ona curb michelle comes over with my purse and hers, and we talk and then chris came over to see if i was ok.. and then all i could hear was dan calling on ppl..
so this is all apparently my fault cuz im not allowed to have other guy friends and give them hugs.. like fuck.. i aint in this shit for jealousy.. anyhow, around 330 michelle tells me that i should talk to dan cuz im the only one he will listen to .. so scared as hell i walk over stand between him and everyone else.. and look and him and said plz dont do this.. he stopped talked to me.. and then sumone said sumthing.. he went off the handle again.. so the bald cook guy came to the door i went to appologize again, and then chris came over to do the same.. then the taxi showed up and i walked a lil bit away, and hte cook said hey get ur head outta ur ass and smile .. well that was NOT good thing.. dan blew up again .. i grabbed his arm and said.. dan plz dont.. he stopped dead and walked away.. he started to get in the cab.. and passing out any swear word or threat alive.. dan and jay got in the caba nd left us there, and well i was like in tears still .. this at this point was it.. i couldnt handle any more.. so chris drove us home.. and dan msg'd me saying i went home with chris fuck me and thats it.. i was like omg, u fucking left me there,. and u were the one freaking out over sumthng that didnt even happen..
all this had been going on cuz he thought i had kissed chris.. like christ.. so i called him and he was all calm and was like.."what happened" and i was like are u reatrded.. u were picking a fite with EVERYONE., and getting pissed at suimthng that DIDNT HAPPEN.. so then he hung up on me.. so i was pissed again.. and i wsa talking to michelle saying i couldnt putt myself thru this again.. and well yea so i got up the guts and called his cell.. left a msg on his phone.. but i dont remember what i said..except that it was over cuz i couldnt do this again... but he ignored me till the next day when he txt msg me saying he wanted nothing more to do with me michelle chris or jay.. so i dunno.. i started to talk to him and he was like did u hear the msg u left me .. i told him i didnt remmeber what i said .. so then he was like ok ill forget it happened.. and then ignored me.. until today.. like 2 dayz later and he pops up on msn and puts a crying face... I AM NOT GOING BACK TO HIM... i cant.. i mean what if he would of freaked out on me and hit me? i cant even imagine.. im still a like omg about this.. but i have to moveon..
its just sad that i have no goood judgement when it comes to guys..
i get picked up by nutz drunks pimps and perverts and manage to get into relationships with PSYCHOS.. or ppl that really dont know what the fuck they want.. im tired of it.. i really am..
tonite im going out, with michelle and maybe bruce.. so we shall have sum fun hopefully.. i havent hung out with bruce in a while.. so it should be good times..
i just have to get over dan.. i mean he was so sweet at sum points.. it was a love hate relationship.. and i have to be strong and not respond to his possible attempts to make this better.. CUZ IT WONT!
well argh! im stresssed today at work was nutz boring and i made 12 sales.. i was 15 mins late cuz i woke up late.. grr.. oh well.. tomorrows another day..
i have to go int eh shower and get ready to go out in a bit.. i have to make an appearance at my cuzins house.. its hers and my aunt joyce's bday..
and chris may be stopping by ina bit.. soo .. we shall see
LATER DAYZ! |
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[Apr. 7th, 2005|01:16 am] |
hahaha.. been reading alot lately.. and not about what u may all be thinking...
but yes.. on the satanic religion..
michelle thinks i am fucked..but none the less, its interesting.. ahah ..
so heres a few comments that i found..
1)There are two equal and opposite errors into which our race can fall about the devils. One is to disbelieve in their existence. The other is to believe and to feel an unhealthy interest in them. They themselves are equally pleased by both errors and hail a materialist or a magician with the same delight.
2)Satanism is a blatantly selfish, brutal religion. It is based on the belief that man is inherently a selfish, violent creature... that the earth will be ruled by those who fight to win.
3)The deeds of the flesh are evident, which are: immorality, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery . . . those who practice such things shall not inherit the Kingdom of God.
4)Satan's Goal
According to scripture (Matt. 4:9, 2 Cor. 4:4, Rev. 12:9), Satan's goal is to deceive man by blinding him to the truth of the gospel and to receive worship for himself (Isa. 14:12-14). On a more practical level Satan desires to alter an individual's values and turn them against themselves, their beliefs, family, God and society.
alrite soo.. # 3 is a fucking joke,... sure in thoe world of what ever, this may be what they follw but what about the world of a christian, do they not have a belief that states. sumthing aslong the lines of....
u will not be accepted into heaven until ur sins have all been repented, but not a day goes by that u do not commit a sin, therefore u will be a sinner until u die, so the day u walk to those doors of gold, he (god) will forgive u if u are sincere,...
hahah.. so the point in hell is what?
And the point in going to church is what?
i mean really..
all those, priests that, violate those lil boys are all going to heaven?? how the fuck does that work..
i refuse to believe that that all sins are forgiven, BUT if that is what helps those bastards sleep at nite.. then by all means!!!
i still hope they all rot in hell for all the shit they did..
and uknow what .. i know very damn well my sins willnot be fogiven.. i am NOT catholic.. so u know what..does that mean that i am already fromt eh day i was born damned to eternity to hell??
i really dont get religion, i agree with my grandmother on this one.. is a cult and the only way they can make it sound less santanic is by including "god" well fuck god.. he doesnt exist.. he is just a figure of ur imagination to allow urself to think the better of any down situation..
i mean really.. a serial killer can be sentenced to death and then state the phrase " oh dear god no" hahah .. are U fucking kidding me???!?!?
well before i go any further and piss more ppl off.. i have one last spurt.. and im done..
isnt the catholic religion based on respect?!@?!
how is it respectful to have the "dead" pope slapped on a table for all to see. i mean really.. they could of had a nice glass coffin... or an OPEN coffin.. but on a table.. how rude.. i would NEVER..
alrite im done..
later dayz!!! |
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[Apr. 5th, 2005|04:46 pm] |
im trying here and it just doesnt seem to be reciporcating at allllll..
i mean really now.. if i could only voice my opinions on here with out the fear of being judged... I WOULD.. but the fact that i dont want anyone knowing my thought process and how truley psychotic i am, im choosing not to go off on a rant today .. instead i am choosing to be positive and tell u the good things in my life rite now.. so here it goes..
1)michelle and i are talking again.. yes the white towels have been thrown in for the sole purpose that we didnt really know why we were mad at eachother.. haha ..how pathetic..
2)im gunna get a mother of a paycheck on tuesday (1 week today)
3)im not lazy, i have a job, i balance school and work and friends and a whatever HE is
4)i have a bruise on my boob from awhile ago and i dont remmeber what happened.. lol.so thats a lil err umm.. WIERD!!
5)i have started to work out again, yea hard to believe but true.. i mean instead of cutting myself toget my mind of things i have decided to throw in one of my tapes and work out to that.. Hmm.. we shall see.. cuz we all know that $60 a month for a gym memeber ship is not worth it when i have my own equpiment in my basement lol..
6)i have set goals here they are
april: finish school: PASS school i should say
may: work full time and get a second job
june: buy a car
july: **part 1**go to the back with my mother, see if i actually can afford my own house and then rent out to ppl in orer to pay the morgage..(not a bad idea at all)
**part 2** rent a house out with michelle.. i will have the money by then.. so that will be sweet and no more dealing with banks..
august: pay off my student loan
september: WORK FULL TIME
october: ditto
november: ditto
december: ditto
january: go back to school pre health sciences to get my certificate
and this is where it stopss lol..
who ever is in my life now, and wants to continue to do so then they have to accept my plans.. i know this all works on paper.. but none the less i intend to get more then half done..
i have no problem cutting ppl outta my life who dont deserve to be in it.. and i have proven that.. over and over again..
sooo this is where it stands..
im on my own in july, or august.. and that is that.. that is my MAIN goal..
no one thinks i will do it.. cuz i was suppose to be out sooo many times b4.. but t hings kept coming up.. u know like trips and such.. b ut no more.. i am driven.. and i will accomplish this one thing if it kills me..
:D well i have nite school tonite.. so that should be interesting.. haha .. IF i go..
i have to finsih typing up those stupid reports and take my tests.. i can still do this.. and im glad.. im doing it on my own and no one is here to hold me back..
well its 5 soo imma go shower and such.. and get ready to go out..
im not actually going.. im waiting for dan to get back to me.. we may go for coffee.. and then im picking michelle up later.. and then my mom up at 9..
fun fun fun..
later dayz !! |
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| ...THIS IS FOR YOU PPL WHO HAVE UR OWN VIEWS... |
[Apr. 5th, 2005|12:08 am] |
| [ | characteristics of.... |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | imaginary noises |
| | unknown music from trever guitar | ] |
here are sum apparent conspiracy theories.. feel free to comment on any one of them with what u know...
ABARHAM LINCOLN
BILL AND MONICA
CIA AND ACID
HAARP
JFK
RFK
JUDGEMENT DAY
MARILYN MONROE
THE MIRACLE DRUG
OCTOBER SURPRISE
PAN AM FLIGHT 103
RACIAL PURIFICATION
SEXUAL BLACKMAIL
TWA FLIGHT 800
THE WACKO FROM WACO
AIDS
THE GEMSTONE FILE
HOWARD HUGHES
JOHN LENNON
LIES OF THE PAST HALF CENTURY
MARTIN LUTHER KING JR.
THE MOON LANDING OF 1969
OKLAHOMA BOMBING
PRINCESS DIANA
RONALD REAGAN
SLICK WILLY
THE UNABOMBER
WATERGATE
BAVARIAN ILLUMINATI
BOMBING OF PEARL HARBOR
GERMAN SPIES
THE JESUS CONSPIRACY
JONESTOWN MASSACRE
THE LIZARD KING
THE MEN IN BLACK
THE NEW WORLD ORDER
OPERATION DESERT STORM
PROTOCOLS OF THE ELDERS OF ZION
ROSWELL
THE SORCERERS
VOTESCAM
THE WHITEHOUSE PUTSCH
so yes.. u have a comment.. write one..
pick a subject and expand ur mind.. im really looking forward to ur thoughts and views everyone and anyone!!! |
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